#it is not fair...

It is so stupid. Every time I have some sort of urge, I have to clarify that it is just an urge for me. It is not a ploy for attention, it is not some pointed remark, or a flaunting of attention. I am not trying to cast a net to see what I catch. I am not trying to make anyone feel like they are not a real choice... But everyone else gets to speak and flirt and be semi-public with their desires. Not me. I have to make a disclaimer in case someone spots it and I am shut out for even longer.

god damn it, reality sure can pack a damn punch when you remember the fact this may be the last year you see your classmates and teachers...