#ishouldntpostthis

I've been trying to think of a place to put some guilty-pleasure fanart to keep it off my Instagram, and then I remembered Tumblr! Tumblr will appreciate my garbage art XD

First of all I'm upset because of what 1 did, 1 might as well have gone to see (them) w/o me as well. Second of all I'm upset because 2 doesn't have enough time. I shouldn't have let myself do what I did but I'll probably do it again because being with 2 makes everything better and its easy and its comfortable. But in reality 3 is the best option but 3 isn't what I want then I feel like shit for that. I'm also upset that its so easy for her. Her life is perfect she gets to see hers and leave whenever she wants Los Angeles is feeling like a jail I can't see the people I want or do the things I used to love. It makes me upset also that mine is back, I know she wants happiness I just want her to find something better. I left for good and I want her to do the same.