#ishik

was woken up by a baby goat today. a baby goat trampling my face. 

I feel so so tired. which is ridiculous, I wake up later than everyone else and am probably the first to fall asleep.  but maybe it is because I am ill? my stomach still does not feel quite right. and I'm starting to get a sore throat.  and my brain feels like it's trying to eat its way through my face. 

By mid-afternoon though I kinda don't want the group outing to be tomorrow/to leave here for a day. I was writing in my journal and then I went to pee for the third time in two hours, and when I was outside they said I was going horse riding today. So me and my uncle went out to herd sheep and it was amazing because it was so nice out.  And when I got back I had my interview with my host dad/Bagana and I took shit notes because my fingers were still numb and I couldn't move them properly. 

Then my brothers left for school. :(  Like, took baths, packed up their things, got on a motorcycle with their uncle, and left to go stay at the soum center school for a couple of months.  I miss them already.  I miss having a sort of buffer between me and the adults and the baby. So I am learning a new dynamic.  I guess it's not that bad, I feel like I can be more useful.  Less time is spent playing with them.