why do i do this to myself /lh

Ishat is a Phoenician Goddess of fire (Her name simply means "Fire"), called "the Bitch of the Gods". She is mentioned in the Epic of Ba'al as one of the enemies of the God who is destroyed by Anat, the warrior Goddess. Ishat is called "the Fiery" and is evidentally a Goddess of fire and heat; as Ba'al is the God of the rain and lightning (personified as the Goddesses Talaya and Pidraya, respectively) Who brings life-giving moisture to a dry land, perhaps Ishat represents the burning heat of summer that causes the plants to wither up and die. (x)

In Caananite mythology, Ishat and Zabib were the goddesses of fire and flame and servants of Yam-Nahar, the chaos god of the sea. Both of them were destroyed by Anat, the virgin goddess of war, on behalf of her brother, Hadad. It has been suggested that Ishat and Zabib personified the heat of summers and droughts and were thus natural enemies of Hadad, a god of storms and fertility.