#is this functioning?

no memories. no memories. i can’t remember. i don’t recall. what happened? i don’t know. but i know i was there. what’s going on? i don’t understand what’s happening? violently overwhealmed. painstakingly underwhealmed. do other people feel like this inside? crack open my sternum with a baseball bat. bludgeon me until i pop, my insides bursting everywhere. why is my blood sticky? it’s jet black. black tar is everywhere. pouring from my chest cavity. i just wanna know what i need. don’t you feel like this too?