irlmammon
- why did I leave? where have I been?
Hello Folks! Jordan here!
Some of you know me better as @irlmammon.
I wanted to address some things including what led up to me deleting my blog and what I’ve been doing since.
For some of you, that's a blog you haven’t heard about or from since December of last year (2020) or January (2021).
I have been back on tumblr for some time to be completely honest. My new blog is @algaedo and I have a bunch of wonderful followers and friends over there. I haven't been writing like I used to because I don’t have the motivation to, and that's okay. Eventually I’ll get back into the swing of it. For now I’m just trying to get more active again.
What led me to deleting my blog originally was completely my fault. I had decided to take a popular blog on and I was not prepared for the backlash. I thought I was but it proved to be too much for me. I was getting hounded to apologize to a creator, who since has been called out for other actions unrelated to the reason why I was calling her out, by her fans. Again, this is completely my fault. I was calling out Chey for small things that were insignificant and reflecting on it now, not worth losing my community over. I have since privately apologized to her for how I treated her and we have gone our separate ways. I chose not to make a public statement about the apology because I did not think clearing my name was a good idea, as such would look like I was only doing it to get people off of my back. I wanted the apology to be sincere, not about getting my followers back.
I set myself up for failure posting what I did about her and I couldn’t handle it so I left. I deleted my blog. It didn’t stop the backlash or the hate that I received. But it gave me time to figure out where I needed to place my priorities and its not picking a fight with someone and their thousands of followers. Nor is it stressing over follower count and worrying about engagement or post interactions.
I reuploaded my content to my other blog, and I’ve been happy there since.
I lost a lot of friends, but those that have stayed have been the best that I can ask for. Especially Bey.
I’ve also started playing alot more games like Genshin Impact and Tears of Themis. I hope I can make good content for them in the future and meet people that enjoy them as much as I do.
I also hope that you are doing well, whether or not you know what I’m talking about. Thank you if you’ve read this far. It means alot to me that you guys know I’m still here and that I do miss you. I’m also sorry to anyone who I had disappointed when I tried to call out Diavolosthot. I never wanted it to end the way it did. I promise will continue to try to do better and to learn from my mistakes. I will not promise that I will stop making mistakes.
If you have any questions or just want to talk about anything, my asks are always open, feel free to use those.
Thank you again,
irlmammon.
