#iris thought posts

i wonder if they ever went to the nurses abt it, they prob learned it was a bad thing before arriving to edgar allan, but how did the nurses respond (i assume with assurances abt it being fine or telling them they just needed to manage stuff better) but like :(

ok so after the kathy ferdinand show when riko corners kevin & neil he says this: “you said that goalkeeper had potential and then wrote him off as useless when i offered him to you” to me that reads as after riko & kevin visit andrew to recruit him, riko steps in and “offers” andrew to kevin and then kevin calls andrew “useless” to stop riko from getting him…… Interesting….. because like this has to be after they visit bc why would kevin ask riko & tetsuji to fly out to andrew but also call him useless at the same time so it Has to be after, and we know that andrew obviously rejected them, so i wonder what exactly kevin’s reasoning was, i wonder if it was just andrew’s “no”, kevin hasn’t had much of a say of anything in his life so he wants to let andrew have a choice, or maybe he knew that andrew could never fall in love w exy while on the ravens and he wants andrew to find joy it in, or maybe he doesn’t want to see andrew break under riko’s control, maybe that’s why he chose such harsh wording as useless because he knew nothing else would deter riko

also the next part when riko says “you’ll get bored of this one just as quickly. believe me” (this one being neil) is interesting bc we Know that kevin is still interested in andrew and playing exy w andrew and then after this kevin “pressed his lips into a hard line and looked away” which could be a sort of shame or guilt maybe ? idrk, But if u read it that way then it makes the the next part where “riko made a digusted noise low in his throat” really interesting, especially since after that riko says smth aggressively in japanese and kevin “flinched and offered a weak response” which promoted an “angry accusation” from riko….. hmm…. Interesting…. to me this reads as Maybe kevin was/is attracted to andrew(/neil) and riko knew/knows this and is disgusted, bc well he’s homophobic, and that’s why his reactions are described as “disgusted” and “aggressive” (OR just riko’s general dislike for kevin being interested or wanting anything/anyone other than him….) (OR his dislike for others ppl staking their “claim” over kevin and his attention)

also the word “offers” is so interesting to me like …… it’s such a weird choice of word w sm meanings in this context bc “offered him to you” could mean riko’s allowance of them to recruit andrew, or it could mean riko offering andrew to kevin the way kevin was offered to him (tho i don’t think he would do that), or it could mean riko had a plan to force andrew to join the ravens, or smth else, but either way the word offered also connotes (to me at least) that the thing being “offered” is property and Not an actual human being, which is eugh………….. but on brand for riko

^ but also this is no hate to any creator, this is just my opinion, and u are free to like, read, and write whatever you like idgaf, this is just me stating my opinion !!! (also ik not all raven neil media is like this i’m just basing this take off of things i’ve seen but this is not a slight to any creator pls don’t take it that way this is just my opinion, please have fun writing raven neil anything and don’t take this too seriously if u write/read/like this kind of raven neil)

SO with that disclaimer out of the way, my reason why is bc i don’t think he’s characterized the best… from the few things i have read and seen he is portrayed as pretty mouthy towards riko & he stands up for jean/kevin, and while i think those things Can be true under specific circumstances and in certain instances… i don’t fully believe in that… when we get part of neil in the nest we see a neil who has been physically far removed from the threat of the yakuza for years, Obviously there was always the lingering mental and looming physical threat of his father, but the moriyamas weren’t really on his radar before joining the foxes, this allowed him a sort of dissonance? or like mental distance from the situation imo, which made him speak up more publicly against riko, ofc from his POV we also get his natural aggression that he tones down and eventually lets out, so that would most likely spring out a few times had he been in the nest from his “audition”, but remember, he would’ve been thrust from his father’s hands into the moriyama’s—into tetsuji’s, another abusive older male figure (which we see neil be wary of w wymack in tfc). so it’s very likely that going from his father to tetsuji wouldnt make him as “mouthy” as we see him in the triology & portrayed in raven neil media ALSO we get a quote in trk where neil says “He'd let Riko take him apart time and time again because it was the only way to survive, because bending should have kept him from breaking, but Neil didn't know if he could pull himself back together one more time. He wasn't strong enough for this. He never had been. His mother had held him up but she was gone now.” and this was AFTER the ~8 years of physical separation from the yakuza & their abuse… even when he was older and had been less physically immersed in their world he still bent to riko & tetsuji, which means at the young age of 10, with the threat of his father looming, and he’d just been there, and seeing his father murder someone in front of him (maybe not for the first time, but still horrific and a horrible display of power) he would 100% bend to riko’s and tetsuji’s wills

esp if y’all look at the EC oh my lordddddd my boy is arfid incarnate

like mainly eating carbs/sugar—most likely processed foods—very consistent textures !!!

not eating a lot of vegetables & refusing to touch them—texture avoidance !!! variations suck !!! disliking foods touching one another !!!

prefers vegetarian options as opposed to meat—again meat is unpredictable !!!

liking spicy foods could be sensory seeking behavior !!! (big andrew autism truther + arfid is often comorbid w autism bc of *one* of the main factors in arfid is texture issues)

cutting food into small bites—makes texture more manageable !!! not so much food in your mouth in one bite !!!

(ss of EC below for context !!)