At this point, he had to assume that Bellamy had left him and the rest of her life behind. Maybe it got too much, with Roman, with his job, with him always being busy. But he was still angry about it. Upset. On the verge of becoming enraged. He hadnât let himself be open to that kind of feeling with someone since over a decade ago, and this time, it wasnât death that took the person away, it was that personâs choice. He knew rationally, he had to respect that. But he didnât. He was so filled with hate and loss and betrayal. He wanted to yell, he wanted to erase every picture he had of her, throw out all of her shit in his apartment. Above all of that, though, he wanted to get so shitfaced he forgot her name, and his name. He pounded the shots back in sucession, babbling to the bartender, himself, and anyone who was in earâs reach. âGuess what? Love? That shit is a sham. Itâs all chemicals in your brain. Take a fuckinâ molly instead, son.â