"Don't Say It"
Home, to Remy, means something a little different than it does to other people. Itâs because Remy learned what it was like to have a home only when he was ten, plucked off the streets to live with the Thieves Guild. Home is a little unsettling and a little challenging, but thereâs food there. Food he doesnât have to pay for, but does have to share. Home is safe, but sometimes it doesnât feel that way.Â
Living with Logan is like that, and for a long time Remy doesnât mind. Dinner with Logan is good, and so is sleeping with him and waking up next to him and cooking him breakfast. It's better than it ever has been with anyone else, because Logan knows that Remy's a filthy thief and doesn't mind, but eventually Remy has to admit to himself that sometimes it's also worse than it's ever been before. He can't go on with the relationship indefinitely, no matter how much he'd like to.
Logan must know itâs coming. Heâs a tactless asshole, sometimes, and more willing to punch people than to listen (and Remy can relate, honest) but Logan isnât stupid or oblivious. Remyâs been trying to put it off, to hide it, but as good as Remy is at lying heâs never been able to keep from flinching. Logan must known itâs coming, but theyâve been ignoring it. Maybe because Remy is hiding enough that Logan doesnât think itâs out of the ordinary. Maybe because theyâre both optimistic. If a relationship with the Wolverine could ever be considered to have a honeymoon period, Remy supposes that they might still be in it, after all.
It must seem like Remy is afraid of Logan. Heâs not, not really, not since Logan became his partner, and then his partner. You canât work with a hitter you don't trust, and Remyâs never been the kind of fool to fall into bed with someone who scares him, butâŚ
Itâs the claws.
From the moment Logan first unsheathed them to threaten Remy into helping him investigate Loganâs past, Remy has been unable to look at them without remembering Sabretooth. Not just because the sight of them makes Remy smell sewage and blood, but because Logan has the same violent, feral edge to him that Sabretooth had. Maybe there is and maybe there isnât a solid link between Logan and Sabretooth â itâs not as if Remy is ever going to bring Sabretooth up in conversation with Logan, after all.
Logan was stubborn, and Remy considered himself dedicated. They could probably work it out. But eventually Logan would find out that Remy had been on a crew with Sabretooth, and what that crew had been hired to do. Remy would prefer that he and Logan were on strictly business terms by the time Logan learns the truth, because Remy prefers being stabbed by business partners rather than bed partners.
"Took a job in Moscow," Remy says, finally, when they've just finished wrapping up their latest job together. "Alone. Figured dat we could use a break."
