hi besties! i'm meredith, i use they/she pronouns and i'm in the eastern tz! and i will be playing our resident 'casual' inspired muse, birdie :) you can find her app and a bunch more details belowwww

basic background & info! 

youngest of 4 kids and her parents and siblings are all entirely uninvolved and uninterested in the arts, very much a “being gay is fine but being a singer is where we draw the line” type vibe, they wanted her to have a successful stable job

homeschooled, originally sheltered to the extreme, one of those kids who wasn't allowed to watch spongebob or drink soda and then went kinda crazy when they got independence. newfound love of partying. if she’d ever tried shrooms, and she wants to, she’d tell you they were “life changing”. 

has never had a long term relationship and is too much of a lovergirl for hookups, but is a serial month long love affair monogamist. 

dropped out of college and moved to LA to work on her grind, communication with her family since has been very tense and limited since, with varying degrees of contact.

takes herself incredibly seriously, a bit of a tortured soul. definitely was writing sad poetry from at least age 9. some bad mental health history as a teen, worried with her separation from her family and all the new stresses of honeydew. 

hasn't seen like any movies, had one of her sisters teach her how to burn CDs in high school so she could listen to the not clean versions of her favorite songs.  she still loves to carry around her CD player instead of playing music on her phone, both for nostalgia reasons and because she thinks it makes her look cool and esoteric

took vocal and dance classes, attended open mics like 6 nights a week and performed in the ensemble of a few local musical productions while working various waitress and retail jobs to hone her skills further, has never published or sang her own songs publicly

landed the role in honeydew and has been coasting on that high ever since.

music & personality!

authentically quirky in basically every way, unforch. i wish it was performance. who says she can't wear her converse with her dress? generally has whimsical fashion sense, lots of practical pieces along with fluffy tulle skirts and bangle bracelets and bows and mixing patterns and colors. think combat boots with a betsy johnson dress and clay earrings from etsy made by someone’s toddler. 

 a dreamer, a wisher and lover of whimsy! puts stickers on anything, carries around a camera to take polaroids of people, insists on pinky promises, going crazy for birthdays, wishes on eyelashes and the power of manifestation and positive thinking. total astrology girlie. 

despite her pretentions and insistences fame is nothing to loathe or strive for, two things are true 1) she's got a big heart, trusts and loves indiscriminately and 2) she loves finally feeling successful so much she'd do anything to keep it going 

has one of those complexes where she's both self loathing and thinks she's a better writer than anyone else, and struggles a lot internally with the mixed reception to honeydew.

wants to make very earnest, honest, folk-y singer songwriter solo stuff focused on emotions, lyricism and/or vocal performance. think to the past with tracy chapman or stevie nicks and the present with jensen mcrae or gigi perez. plays the guitar and proud of it. 

loves oldies music, especially 70s rock and 90s rnb, the latter of which is the direction she's trying VERY hard to pull honeydew while working on her solo stuff in private. hoping it'll help with her dissatisfaction.

buuuuttttt she’s still constantly internally wallowing in misery about how she wishes honeydew sounded more like TLC if she HAS to be in a group.

introverted, but very sweet. thinks before speaking but still tends to ramble. observes from the shadows. definitely the type of person you can walk over to keep the peace. but how bad will she snap if she hits her breaking point?

ultimately just feels very alone and misunderstood in the great big world and is desperate for connection: romantic, platonic, professional, or through her music.

media interview

tell us about yourself! where are you from and what has your life been like before now? 

“if you want to just imagine the most boring upbringing you can, that was probably mine.” it’s short, and without the usual charm she tries to anxiously inject into every answer, in hopes of it being noticed, thought of as authentic, as she rolls over each smile and nod in her head like she needs to wear it down. family is something she tries to walk far, far away from, even when the realest answers might be the most interesting ones. she keeps it light: “i was homeschooled, so you can just imagine, like, little me sitting at home reading in the suburbs of pittsburgh, pennsylvania. it’s sad. someone else is going to have to answer if the stereotypes about us all being weird is true or not.” her smile is back, more natural, the idea of gracefulness and a well-timed giggle. not everything is an investigation into your psyche, birdie.     

what inspired you to become a musician?

“i’m gonna sound like, either totally weird in a spiritual, essence-y way here, or sound like i’m blowing smoke up myself, but i have to say what i feel. i don’t even think i was ever inspired to become a musician, i think i was born one. i’ve always heard music everywhere i go, in everything i do. i would listen to the trash being collected and the wind blowing and the birds chirping when i woke up too early in the morning and i’d be like ‘this is a song’. i don’t think i’ve gone somewhere without headphones on me since i was six. with honeydew, i think for me, i just love getting to be a part of how much the idea of the girl group has changed and grown, from the supremes to the spice girls and so many more. being able to live this experience next to true friends i respect as people and as artists, and to pull such inspiration from groups that have sort of formed the perception of women in music is really powerful to me. and i want to show people that the first thing they hear from us, or the most popular thing, might not be all we can do. TLC aren’t just no scrubs. the pussycat dolls aren’t just don’t cha. i mean, we got beyoncé from destiny’s child!” 

what are the best and worst parts of fame?

morfeu: filho de hipnos e pasítea, é o deus dos sonhos. era responsável por enviar mensagens aos mortais, podendo mudar de forma para isso, desde que fosse uma forma humana.

resumo: hayden tentou se encaixar na vida que os pais queriam para ela, mas não funcionou. mesmo com todo o esforço, nunca se sentiu pertencente ou aceita pela família, aos poucos, decidindo interromper tudo e começar a focar num caminho que ela mesma queria. formada em design, atuava na equipe de marketing de uma empresa de energéticos, saindo recentemente dela. aproveitando que é poliglota e os contatos que conseguiu durante os anos, está trabalhando como tradutora agora, enquanto decide o que quer fazer. a viagem para a grécia foi um presente para si mesma, férias merecidas da loucura que estava sua vida. gosta muito da área artística, mas ainda não tem coragem de se dedicar totalmente para isso. é bissexual, sem relacionamentos muito duradouros.

idiomas: inglês, italiano, espanhol, português, francês, japonês e grego. sabe um pouco de alemão também.

headcanons:

Hayden é a segunda filha do casal Donner e nunca se encaixou na dinâmica imposta para si. Não conseguia entender o tradicionalismo que vivia, tampouco a necessidade de manter as aparências para pessoas que não se importavam com eles. Tudo girava em torno de status, e por um tempo, se esforçou para respeitar esse estilo de vida. Em busca de pertencimento e afeto, abriu mão de diversos sonhos para encaixar nas expectativas deles, tentando equilibrar o que a agradaria e o que agradaria eles.

Mesmo com seus esforços, Hayden nunca foi valorizada como gostaria, muito menos aceita. Perceber isso foi um processo lento e doloroso, até decidir romper. Este rompimento veio de maneira sutil, começando com sua ausência em eventos indesejados, cortar relações que não faziam sentido, buscar um estilo próprio diferente, até sair de seu antigo emprego.

001.  GENERAL

name  stella mae featheringham . nicknames  lella ( parents ) / stel ( friends ) . age  thirty-one . date of birth  february 1st 1992 . zodiac  aquarius . place of birth  portland , maine . current residence  greenwich village , new york city . gender  cis woman . pronouns  she / her . sexuality  bisexual . occupation  level ii cerberus agent . faceclaim  lucy boynton . height  5'5 / 1.65m . tattoos  none . piercings  two on right ear , one on left . distinguishing features  a small gap between her two front teeth . positive traits  polite , dedicated , careful , practical . negative traits  anal retentive , combative , anxious , neurotic . labels / tropes  ( coming soon . ) inspirations  prue halliwell ( charmed ) , sally owens ( practical magic ) . likes  black tea , coffee , cooking , swimming , the colour blue , cats , history books , the ocean , rain and thunder , sunsets , seashells , rock collecting . dislikes  cliffs , long drives , tarot , astrology , harsh sunlight , summer , skinny jeans , the sound of trumpets , movie night without popcorn , lukewarm baths . fears  spiders , car crashes , the dark ( only outside and alone ) . hobbies  cooking , baking , recording podcasts she'll never upload . habits  lip biting , pacing , clicking and unclicking pens , journaling .

002.  EXTRA ORDINARY

present !

10.19.22: honestly, max is just trying to make it through the holiday season without something else bad happening. just give him a break. all he really wants is to vibe for a bit without having to figure out how to get rid of the sanderson sisters. he has spent so much time trying to find a way to solve his problems that he really does need a small break. or like. so he thinks.

past !

moving: max had everything before he was forced to move from his sunny california city to hallow falls. did he want to move? no. especially not in his senior year of high school. but it wasn’t his decision and he was allowed to mope about it. he was used to the vast variety of people in california, not the strange and unusual people who believed in witches in hallow falls. since his opinion on the holiday was much different than everyone else’s, he stuck out like a sore thumb. everyone in town knew it.

magic isn’t real: he’d be the first to tell you that witches weren’t real. the first to believe that the sanderson sisters weren’t real. he wasn’t afraid of his opinion, even if he was one of the few people in his town, and even his own sister was one to believe in the myths. so he did what anyone would do and he made fun of those people to a degree. max was arrogant and haughty about his opinion, instead of maybe believing that it could possibly be real.

the cabin: the night the sanderson sisters escaped, dani did what she did best and threw a fit to get him to go trick or treating with him. honestly, max knew that dani could go by herself, but she got her way that night and max followed his sister around, that night. only for it to turn out just alright when they knocked on his crush, allison’s door. after that, the three of them headed to the cabin where the sanderson sisters were supposed to have lived. 

black flame candle: of course it was hubris that max light the candle thinking that nothing would happen. he didn’t believe in witches and he was going to prove that they weren’t real. but the second he lit the candle, he knew that something was wrong. he was wrong. he knew he had been wrong. when the sanderson sisters appeared, max knew that he was wrong about his opinions. that dani and allison were right. or well, he didn’t think that right away. it wasn’t until a cat turned into a human that he truly believed it. but of course by then it was too late. the sanderson sisters were out, free, and planning on hurting children.

fixing the problem: so now, he’s on a whirlwind mission with his small ragtag group of people to fix the problem that he created by lighting that black flame candle. 

family: only max is allowed to tease dani. his family is important to him, even if he doesn’t say it that often enough. with what he’s going through, max is going to protect his sister and make sure that nothing bad ever happens to dani. he won’t tell her that, but that’s the only reason that he’s going after the sanderson sisters. also he really doesn’t want blood on his hands if they do start hurting children. but mostly, it’s for his sister. 

future !

obviously max needs to learn more about magic in order to defeat the sanderson sisters and save the children. he’s been proven wrong about magic, so he’s got to fix his mistake even if he doesn’t want to. part of this is going to have to be him learning to trust those around him and admit that he’s not always right. unfortunately, he’s not much of a research man. he’s a plan man, so he will leave the studying to allison and dani and help with coming up with ideas on getting rid of the sanderson sisters. so yes, eventually, it would be nice to fix the problem he solved, but it’s going to take effort.

max needs to learn to be more articulate with his feelings, including how he feels about his sister. it’d be nice to explore these sorts of feelings with other characters as well. he probably does think it’s obvious that he cares for his sister, but to the outsider, it probably doesn’t look that way. and it’s not that obvious to dani. it is something that he needs to work on. 

he needs to learn that he can be wrong. period. lighting the candle is the start of him learning this, but future plan is that he really learns that sometimes he doesn’t know what’s best and sometimes he needs to listen to people that are smarter than him and that’s okay. he doesn’t have to be the smartest person in the room or the one that knows everything. sometimes believing in the magic is just as important as proving that it doesn’t exist. it’s not exactly nice to make fun of people who don’t believe in the same thing that he does. so maybe he just needs to let people think what they want to about magic and leave it be. 

taken connections !

binx — the one that used to be a cat? 

georgette — friend

wanted connections !

dani

the sanderson sisters

allison

idk someone other than allison that tries to get him into halloween.

he needs a job.

someone to help him learn more about magic.

friends.

a bully. 

just someone in general that makes fun of his opinions.