29/May 2021

If I was born, if I grew up somewhere else I’d be a different person. I’d say I live a comfortable life, and I feel lucky to live the life I live.

Every time I come back from work I feel like I just want to sleep (through my time). Towards the end of the week, I’m exhausted to the point I question my existence here. But I know, that it’s my choice. And I look forward to the week after, when I can do whatever I want. Every one of us has a life filled with different challenges. After all that, I feel like my life’s easy.

In the meantime of waiting for the time of waking up the other day,* I filled the couple of hours by watching (more like listening) documentaries. I want to doubt, and I want to question myself - my attitude, my opinions, the way I feel the world we are living in -  I’d love to continue on learning how to take better care of our planet, to be aware of my doings and its consequences/effects. I’d love to continue to change. *(Actually this is the part of my life I would like to change, haha.)

Do you want what others want? Do you want what they want you to want? Slaves of our desires, of our fears. Chain. In chains. At the end of it. What is your idea of an ideal life. 

I’m fascinated by people who are driven by hope. It’s beautiful. I wish for their wishes to come true. Or maybe do you feel like you are driven by ‘I have to’? Why did you choose to live the life on this planet?