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#instablogxaxa (update panjang) . I am no swimmer. I have several fears related to water or more like vast sea / ocean / deep ocean. I fear of drowning. I fear of having my feet not touching ground (i know, weird). I fear (more like anxienty) of being in large bodies of water, in vast emptiness of the sea (stranded) and fear of distance from land (despite me being love the beach). See.. A lot to fear related to water, thats why running hiking has always been my chosen sport (read : above sea level / higher elevation 😂😂). Been always want to learn how to scuba dive but my fears and my swimming skill (none) limit me 😂😂. . . But sky is not the limit. Neither universe. Aiseh 😌😏. After taking open water course diving with @borneoscubaacademy, i know i can let go of my fears. . . My fav part is 10 seconds after jump to water (by any means entry opkos sa baru belajar backroll entry jak 😂). Why? Because the nervousness and craziness in ur tummy just before u enter the sea backrolling, everything goes to my head (fears), after that. In between the 10secs, i just surrender, backrolling and letting go the fears. Sunk in few seconds, and then emerge to surface knowing u're ok 👌. My fav part, The 10 seconds. My 10 seconds. 😂😆

"Lose your expectations honey. Its better that way." . . I know i said i dont want to set up a resolution and its almost May and its probably too late, but i've pretty much live my life according to everyone's expectation and me myself have always have this expectations for myself. And its gotta stop. Lets just be happy and live life without no expectation. Just enjoy the journey forget about the 'destination', whatever or whenever the hell it means. Mourning over the past and what it is - is sad enough, so dont start mourning over something that what could have been (and probably never would). #instablogxaxa

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