"they slammed the door on my whole world, the one thing i wanted."

lacey thought that nini would have fun in the hamptons. there was shopping, the beach, exclusive parties, all of it. she would've loved it. "you know, a week at the beach house would be really fun! it'll be so beneficial to just have a girls' weekend!" lacey loved going! "are you not coming because you don't want to or is it...something else?"

@inspotlight 💖 for jake.

        she has a little frog cupped in her hands,   definitely dirty.   they’re both dirty.   “ please can’t he come in?   he’s just a little guy!   you know,   he’s a singer too!   y’know,   he’s working late,   ‘cause he’s a singer.   ”

                there’s  absolutely  no  attempt  at  hiding  that  cj  doesn’t  particularly  enjoy  the  phrasing  of  that,  her  upper  lip  curling  up  into  an  almost  snarl,  but  less  threat  and  more  plain  distaste.    “  fuck’s  that  supposed  to  mean?  ”    unfortunately  for  everyone,  she  knows  she’s  attractive,  it’s  just  something  she  holds  onto.  she  knows  the  way  everything  falls  together  about  her  ends  up  messy  and  sharp  edged,  hot  in  the  way  that  most  people  put  in  effort  to  avoid,  like  a  warning.  she  relaxes  as  soon  as  she  realizes  she  doesn’t  actually  care if it's a bad different or a good different or something unclear and sugarcoated that she doesn't understand. she turns to nini, focuses  her  eyes  on  the  entirety  of  the  girl  in  front  of  her,  amber  gaze  moving  up  and  down  without  care.    “  you  look  boring.  ”

@inspotlight : can you see how many fingers i’m holding up ?