#insideherjournal

listen to this song.. it’s lyrics and melody reflected the pain more than my words ever would

do you know that feeling?

yung akala mo okay na, but its not

yung parang tapos na, naka move on ka na, pero hindi pa pala

nakakaloko no?

but you were fine!

okay ka na naman talaga eh, di ba?

hindi mo na siya naiisip

hindi mo na siya iniisip

you could laugh without suddenly him poppin inside your head

you are fine

you are fine!

but that was just what you thought

kaso hindi

hindi yun totoo kasi nung nakita mo siya ulit

you were slapped right in your face with his smirk that you loved

and once again he had lit the fire you thought youd kill into little specks of ember

once again, nasasaktan ka na naman

nabuhay na naman yung hapdi na kala mo nakasanayan mo na

na akala mo kaya mo na

natanggal na naman yung bendaheng ibinalot mo sa puso mo mula nung makita mo siyang masaya sa iba at ibulong sa sarili mong kuntento ka na, kuntento ka nang masaya siya

but only now did you found out, it wasn’t that simple

that you’re fucking heart was just as stubborn as a bull

na kaya pala wala kang maramdaman para sa iba kasi

kasi mahal mo pa siya

mahal mo pa siya kahit durog ka na

kahit akala mo bato ka na

na sa isip mo kaya mo na kapag nakasalubong mo siya

na kaya mo nang ngitian siya nang hindi nasasaktan

pero syempre mali ka

mali ka na naman

hahahah tch

nakakaloko di ba?

ang sakit..

when will it ever come to you, you can’t ever win against your stone of a heart

it is set

it has made it’s mind 

the moment you’ve written his name all over it

he is embedded in it

kaya ngayon, eto.. yan

nasasaktan ka na naman

para na namang pinipiga yung puso mo

ambigat bigat bigat sa dibdib

ang sakit sakit

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