#inhumanity

Being inhuman online helps me cope with the crippling pain of dissociating everytime i look into a mirror and see the disgusting, pathetic entity stares back.

I actually kind of do want to see Vox 'downgraded' back to box-form but approached as the grotesque whumpy horror concept it is. like that is quite literally one of Vox's worst nightmares, right up there with 'irreparable public humiliation' in terms of things Vox would flat out rather die than have to endure. whether by necessity or an external force his body is being altered against his wishes in a way he considers deeply and intrinsically degrading + deprives him of functional abilities he's come to take for granted. like imagine how isolating and disorienting it would be to be hooked up to a whole technological network and have the internet in your brain and an internal clock and the ability to send calls at will and all the rest of it, only for it to be abruptly ripped away from you all at once. the actual physical shape takes time to readjust to and when he finally does get used to it that's worse because it hits him all at once that he's starting to process this thing he doesn't want as part of his body instead of an invasive foreign object he's temporarily been made to host. and insult to injury almost no one can understand what makes it all such a big deal.

Really a different breed of experience to go about your life in a human body while not being human. Dear god. And you can’t even really just talk about it because who the fuck does that? Who the fuck goes around striking up a conversation with a friend trying to talk about how they feel alienated from the very heart of humanity and cannot seem to grasp it no matter how hard they try. They don’t want to be called human because at this point it just feels wrong. They struggle to see themselves in legitimate people characters in fiction. I frequently only relate to characters whose arc is about their isolation and alienation, and characters that are canonically fucking POSSESSED (not traditionally so but yeah). Like. I know so many of these people anything I say is just gonna go in one ear and out the other. Slide right off their dome like butter off a hot pan. Or they’ll say something dumb like ‘haha dude do you need to see a psychiatrist lol’ NO!!!!! NO I DON’T NEED TO I JUST NEED YOU TO HEAR ME, I NEED YOU TO HEAR ME SO BAD IM GONNA THROW UP. I NEED YOU TO FUCKING TRY

I'm sorry for the inconvenience,

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