Woke up in tears today... Not because of a bad dream or nightmare, but because I miss you so and there's nothing I can do to change it. It's like each passing day my love for you gets deeper... Each passing day I miss you more. Every moment without you is like a tornado off of the Fujita scale everything is a mess and disastrous.

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You know I wouldn't mind falling dead right now.... I know a lot of others wouldn't mind it either... I don't want to but all at the same time I wouldn't mind it at all. For those of you that feel the same way just remember that there are simply wondrous things in life that you have never experienced and it takes a lifetime to live those experiences you don't want to miss that... Keep your head up and your mind healthy with more positive than negative it will help you through some similar things I'm going through now but will also help you through a lot more than just a few things. Stay strong and don't give up on those you love and care for if it takes from you too much give it time and remember that in this world only 1 stranger will ever love you and care for you more than you will ever know unless you have already met that stranger... And remember many things like family is family in the end no matter what they've done they'll still be family and friends for eternity will be there for you at any time any day for eternity never push those you love away and even when you do and they are still there no matter what has happened just know that you always have someone who cares so much about you there for you even when you pushed them far away. Don't go to someone who doesn't care or love you the way someone else does because there is no other person who will love and care for you stronger and more passionately than that person who does and they want nothing but the best for you.