#infernil

“ Your, uh--- Your mother tells me that you were born and raised on Crockett. And that you’re quite the biologist! ”  Another smile, and what looks to be a breath of relief that spills from his lips in a warm fog. The combined school functions well enough, more or less. But he has to wonder what makes someone qualified to be a teacher on Crockett. With Samantha Keane at the helm, he can’t imagine that the job description is all that discerning. “ We’re blessed to have you here. Lord knows the school could certainly use a proper science teacher. ”

“Thing is , the son of a bitch is doing the same goddamn thing for me. Getting me out of there. Getting me back - and he had far more to lose.” ‘MAKES YOU FEEL GUILTY , DOESN’T IT BILL? KNOWING WHAT YOU DID IN THE END.’ His voice haunts him , biting away of what little is left of his conscience. “So we get each other out of there. Don’t know how the hell we managed it - looking back it’s just..a blur. What happens next though....no one saw that coming , except me.” HE REACHES FOR THE GLASS OF WHISKEY ON THE COFFEE TABLE. His coffee table. It’s the first time he’s taken Marie back to his place and not some fancy hotel. “Frank loses his goddamn shit. This man can make or break his entire career and what does Frankie do? tries to break his face.” A snort leaves Billy,  “Took five guys to get him off him , and in the end i was the only one who could calm his ass down. The look in his eyes though....i’ll never forget it y’know? this....shit ...it wasn’t what we signed up for. It wasn’t what we agreed to. Frankie...he was losing himself...hell i was losing myself.” ‘BUT YOU’VE NEVER REALLY KNOWN WHO YOU ARE , HAVE YOU BILL?’ He looks down at his hands , the almost empty glass before he drains the rest. “Knew we had to get out of there. Knew we didn’t have a choice.”

          𝐇𝐄  𝐑𝐄𝐀𝐋𝐈𝐙𝐄𝐒  𝐒𝐎𝐌𝐄𝐓𝐇𝐈𝐍𝐆  as  she  holds  him,  more  gentle  than  nikolai  is  used  to:      it  isn’t  that  marie  looks  at  him  likes  he’s  broken,  but  that  there  was  something  in  him  worth  fixing.  worth  saving,  putting  back  together,  even  after  he’s  broken.  it’s  a  feeling  that  settles  in  his  stomach,  something  hard  to  understand  and  yet  warm  all  the  same.  he  looks  up,  and  his  eyes  show  everything  he  can’t  say,  the  aching  weight  of  it  all  on  full  display.      (HE  NEEDS  TO  LET  SOMEONE  IN).      letting  out  a  sigh,  the  king  lets  himself  lean  into  the  touch.      “i  worry  that  if  i  allow  myself  to  break,  even  alone,  that  i’ll  never  stop.”      he  manages  to  keep  the  shaking  out  of  his  voice.      “trust  me  when  i  say  i  understand  your  concern,  marie.  but  —  ”      that  sounds  too  much  like  he’s  going  to  close  off  again.  nikolai  can  feel  her  heart  beating  against  his  hand;      he  can’t  lie  when  it’s  in  his  hands.      “i’m  sorry.  i  —  i’m  not  used  to  this  kind  of  CARE.”

"There'll be plenty more before this is over."

ooc: She is my baby that I put through the ringer and I love her to pieces. I LOVE YOUR BABIES TOO, TARA. I love writing with you too! Both here and on Alana. Listen, I couldn't resist the ice metaphors and her just killing druskelle with what they find comfort in. ZIVA AND MARIE HYPING EACHOTHER UP IS THE BEST THING. @infernil

why is there a heterosexual in my inbox ????

Her eyes flicked around, looking for other kefta-clad Grisha, other khergud in the sky. "You're gonna want a Healer, or something," she warned. "Ka- There's a theory khergud can smell Grisha. Bleeding all over the place only makes you a better target." She didn't move, though, when Marie started toward the docks. Ketterdam was her home now, and she wasn't going to leave just because Shu Han's flying monsters were around. There were ways to cover one's scent, after all; she was close to perfecting a subtle perfume that drowned out the trackable scent of Grisha but didn't also overwhelm as a giveaway. "You'll want to get out of town soon, then. It won't take long for them to send reinforcements." She intended to stay and fight, take as many of those Fabrikated abominations with her if she went down. They weren’t the only demons in Ketterdam.