Diwali is a great festival for Hindus primarily but i have seen that almost all celebrate diwali and celebration primarily being bursting of crackers etc.So diwali is a grand "festival of lights" legend has it that krishna destroyed a demon Narakasura and there are many other reasons cited by other hindu communities and so people marked a festival on their calendars and as far im concerned any holiday is a good day (smiles)...But my gripe is that i have started to consider Diwali as one of those worst festivals to be celebrated..why ?...because of the annoying fire crackers...you see people bending down to light up these horrible fire crackers and run away for safety before this explodes into shreds of paper , smoke besides causing annoyance by its smoke and sound...i hate the noise i simply hate it ,,,not to mention the cloud of smoke one wakes up to and even more cloud of smoke and haze as one goes down to sleep... the hazard it one poses to one's health ...so i say why can't people just quit it...if i go and say this to a common person maybe i might be stoned to death because people don't think about its effect they just want to go on with their silly tradition because someone told to...banning fire crackers is the way to go if you ask me but then i dont think anyone is gonna ask for my approval nor do i have any authority to ban it but in the future hope someone with authority has the balls to approve such a ban but to do something like that its going to take someone with serious balls .... but religion plays a big part in all of this ,in politics its fucking everywhere , clouding peoples judgement and blinding them , am i an atheist ?  i believe in a higher energy ...people give it names , forms as far as im concerned it is a mysterious energy ,an entity far removed from anything a human being can understand or probably take a lot of time to understand or even if a human claims to understand it ,will it be the truth or just perception ....they say there are only half truths and perceptions ...so this energy is a mystery that drives life itself , posing questions , ruining people ,making people mad . making people blind  , why ? it's all perception ...as Buddha says question everything and do not follow blindly ....but how many people do that ? only a few ? you see most of the scriptures say that surrender yourself to me , atone , ask for mercy and this god would remove all your sins away ? make you fresh and clean ? all this is bullshit ? you know what if you ask me ...this goodness and this bad-ness is inherent in us...we know what to do and what not to do because we are part of this higher energy or my perception from my own dabbling in mysticism is that we are an extension like a root of the tree .....deep in your heart , you know what to do ...most of the religions do say good things ...is that to be compassionate  , to love and help others but people are always selfish and greedy and they tend to follow or support only what they feel is good for them , for instance people go to a holy place and pray so that they might get what they want ,like pass an exam or they want someone dead whatever the reasons it is all selfish and self centered most of the times ...if we are energy and i do believe that we are greatness ourselves ,,,the way how i see to pray is to wholeheartedly send my good vibrations,feelings and thoughts to the other person and he being from the source as im should possibly receive it ,it all might seem a big far fetched but as you go through life and life teaches you many things and this is my own perception ....but the whole point being that we  need to be brave ,compassionate..not just pretending but if everyone can just  sit for one moment and think about their lives , think about others, the amount of suffering that we feel , that our survival actually depends on positive vibrant connections boom you hit the spot and there is this instant realization and you will start to see through the dirt , some may still laugh at the whole thing ,discard it and continue in their previous ways but to some it changes them , they start to vibrate in this whole new positive energy that has some how been exposed to them ....suddenly small things matter ,a sunshine, the rain,a  smile it brings so much of joy to your heart , once you reach that stage and to reach that stage you have to go through various stages in life ,they say life itself is a teacher but if you want to be taught , you must show the will that you need to be taught ,some people are lucky they learn it quick ,some are slow , some refine their teachings from books , some from experiences ,from observing . but the key thing being that they are put in a difficult phase , a point of being submerged in burning sand , you suffer, then you know what it is to be happy , what it is to be kind ,...these are experiences that one goes through and im sure anyone  would go through if they seeks to be taught by life and i myself am being taught being punished and rewarded ...learning new things ....this world full of awning surprises in every corner , so many things to learn .to love. to be happy.
    Make a model, put yourself in it , be true to yourself , question endlessly and ask yourself do you belong in that model that you put so much of faith in ? do you think its worth it ? just ask once? and life being so kind and being the ultimate teacher and it will teach you and when you realize it , that your destiny is somewhere else that you have a dream which can be materialized , when you realize that you can love and offer so much to this world ...you will escape the walls that you have built and will love watch it  fucking burn down to ashes and you start to appear strong , surprised at your new skin , surprised at your scars that you have made it alive this far , surprised at your realization ,  as you watch those flames go up , you turn and walk...where you would get to ? no one knows but with your will , positivity , your vibrant awakened inner energy good things will happen they are bound to happen ,bad things do come in the way but they make you strong and you move on,keep pushing your muscles till they tear ...towards your dream no matter how far fetched it might seem in the beginning ,it is possible ,you say you can not change fate ? if you do not try how can you know ? be kind , be positive, compassionate , follow your heart and the rest will follow > maybe you can fight your fate ..i intend to fight it maybe im inept and foolish but i like being brave ,,,life is a challenge go on dare it and maybe get your ass kicked but you will learn , you always learn , you want something you will surely have to lose something that i believe is  a law of life ...with the right mind , you will surely find the way thats what i believe in ,that's my perception ..so you want to challenge it . take a dare , ready to get your ass kicked and learn great things.. come  step on the edge ...you will be in for a ride.....first start by burning everything down ...oh not in the physical sense ...no....burn it internally ,,,all your fears, your walls built within your mind they are strong to resist your flames but they need to be put down first ....there is a song by a pretty much unknown group called Bogus blimp in one of their songs the singer announces - "Nothing is impossible if i have the means to achieve it" so you want to celebrate . celebrate by spreading love.....%@#$ !@#$ !@# #$# $#@@Â
