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I’ve been meaning to make this post for a long time.

I cannot help but feel I have been let down by witchcraft. I’ve struggled with chronic illness for a long time, and I turned to witchcraft to help me with that… and it hasn’t worked.

I know that witchcraft doesn’t equal magic, I know that herbs can’t suddenly cure me. I wasn’t naïve going into this but that doesn’t change the fact that I feel like I’ve been doing this for nothing.

I want to say that I’m not trying to invalidate others experiences, if it works for you it works, and I’m happy for you. But for me? I’m just trying to reconcile and make sense of my experiences.

I have myalgic encephomyalitis, also known as chronic fatigue syndrome. It means that my entire body constantly feels like I’ve just run a marathon, and some days I can’t get out of bed because of it. There is no “cure” for M.E, theres no surgery. It usually effects people over 65, but here I am- a teenager. I turned to witchcraft as a last resort, and for a while I felt better. It worked until it didn’t, a placebo effect that was fantastic until it came crumbling around my ears. I got tired again, I got depressed again, my life returned to normal, only now my room smelled like wax and one of my lampshades was burnt because I fell asleep with a candle burning.

I wanted it to work so damn badly, if witchcraft is about intention I was Hermionie. But I haven’t gotten any real help from the spirits or crystals, I haven’t changed due to my peppermint and lavender oil, I’m still me and I hate it.

I saw all these people who were so happy with their craft and so enthralled with their beliefs and I was left confused and, as always, exhausted.

So now we come to the reason I made this post: my blog.

Incenseitivity means a lot to me, and I thank all the 400 (!!!) people who followed me, but i’m going to be converting this blog into less of a tips-and-tricks grimoire into more of a journal.

I want to talk more about witchcraft, and more about my experiences with it, so I’m far from abandoning this blog. But I felt like I should tell you guys whats been up with me recently.

My ask box is always open if you want to talk, or if you have any questions about me or my posts.

Much love,