Never EVER feel guilty for sharing your thoughts and feelings, that rule number one. 

Second, you don’t need to be diagnosed to have a Mental Illness, but maybe you should see somebody, there are things that could benefit & help you, my lovely. 

Third, self harming most definitely isn't a pathetic cry for attention, hence why people cover it up, honestly, I don’t see how physically hurting yourself in private is related to being attention seeking at all, and if it is then its still an issue and that person still needs help because they’re mentally ill and obviously can’t help it. 

I can’t believe you went a year, I am so SO proud of you. Just because you cut 6 days ago doesn't mean you've ruined your clean streak, even I have slipped up now and again in my 400+ days, its just a bump in the road, so keep up the amazing work and remember, these things happen (relapse), it doesn't affect your recovery. Feeling guilty for hurting yourself is common, I used to feel guilty, you just have to distract your mind as much as you can. 

Wow there, I am no call girl, okay! 

I've slept with ONE guy in my whole 19 years of life. And if its any consolation, I was very depressed, I felt alone & I was at a very dark point in my life. Only just recently have I started to change. P.S. sleeping with one person ONCE, yes, ONCE, does not make somebody a whore. 

Hahaha, bless you. It doesn't sound gross at all.