i’ve been avoiding interacting with the mcr community and even music after the announcement of a tour, and i didn’t know why, because i was so hyperfixated on them from the ages of 9-17 that it was legitimately like my obsession with aot (shocking ik). but i think that IS the reason, bc twitter was barely even around back then, tiktok was still musically, and the youtube app still came predownloaded in iphones so there was NO fandom(?) compared to today. frank was on myspace. HIS POEMS. the entire band was on myspace. it was controversial for gerard to wear a skirt on stage. i memorized their birthdays and celebrated them lowkey. interviews were filmed using a potato. the afro jokes. the frank small bean jokes. the ray getting left behind at the rest stop meme. THE GERARD FABULOUS BOA JOKES. the gerard touching himself on stage moments that i’ve seen younger fans don’t even know about??? this was peak entertainment to 13 year old me. MY FRERARD HEART WHENEVER FRANK AND GERARD’S DUET CAME ON ON DESTROYA. RAY GETTING HIS HAND IN RHE CUPCAKE. basement gerard. me and my friends recreating the ‘im not okay’ music vid. my first buy from hot topic being an mcr black parade shirt. THE FANFICTION. the me fantasizing about getting tattooed as fuck like frank when i got older (i wanted my first tattoo to be his symbol). MY OBSESSION WITH DANGER DAYS.
the peak of entertainment for us was those funniest moments compilations, recordings of entire concerts on the earliest iphones that kept buffering on my ipod touch bc my family didn’t know what WIFI was - and ahem, certain youtubers.
so it’s like… i feel like im out of my element even though I KNOW. this band is SO personal to me. like am i the equivalent of a boomer. this band is almost 25 years old and there are 12 year old fans AND IT TAKES ME OUT (not a bad thing ofc but i feel so weird when i think about it). i am an elder emo … ?
i seriously have such a visceral emotional reaction when i think about mcr for 5 seconds that it’s unbearable /pos. ironically some shit i went through rly made me detach from the band and i’m so mad abt it now :/ maybe i can make a fan account and cope
my biggest flex to this day is being born on the exact day and year bullets came out btw
