#imsomiserable

Holy shit! I think it's time to stay off my feet 😔 I've been pounding the fluids, but that isn't working... this can't be good... #preggoproblems #souncomfortable #imsomiserable #thisbabycantcomesoonenough 🤰😖 (at Hermon, Maine)

1:41am I can't sleep. Kelvin told me he loved me, and I realized that I can never love him. Which makes it easier for me to know that I'm making the right decision in letting him go. But it's harder on him. But also, he doesn't know what he's saying, he doesn't really love me... he just really likes me and he thinks that's love... I'll have to break up with him after New Years but before the semester starts again. *sigh* I wanted to like him as much as he likes me.. I tried very hard. I thought I had real feelings but I was just lonely. But I would rather be single than keep being with him. I feel bad too because he's a really nice guy.. but there no "umff" (I thought there was in the beginning, but that was wishful thinking/wanting). He's just really dull.. Duller than I am..lol At least I am not doubting whether I'll be making a mistake by breaking up with him. I know for sure that I'll never love him. I'll never love anyone again. (I used to think people who said that were stupid.. but I see what they meant). Even if I do get to love someone... it'll never be as intense and intimate as my previous relationship. Woah.. that's really sad... Damn. Well at least I have my friends, and Netflix, and 🍷.

OMG SHINEE IS IN SIXFLAGS RIGHT NOW!!! Why cant I be there :,( T.T #keyinstagramupdate #imsomiserable #iwanttogotosixflagsnow #shineeinsixflags #shineinLA #akdhisbdosjdjdnsjdks