#imsofucked

I’m particularly fucked with maths. No other subject just maths. I moved school when we were first learning the essential skills in maths, because of that move I was placed in the bottom class. I did get moved up class after a week because of my ability but I feel like I should have been moved up more. Obviously I wasn’t, I wouldn’t have this problem if I did. I was stuck at this level for two years learning way too easy maths even though I displayed enough skill to be moved up. I asked many times to be moved up to no avail. When I get to finally take the harder maths class I didn’t take it seriously. I was taking higher level classes so maths is the only one at the lowest level. It was again, too easy and because of that I didn’t do any studying. And because of that I think I failed my final exam when several topics came up what I didn’t know about.

So yeah, I’m getting results back on the 9th and I’m pretty sure I massively failed my maths exam and won’t be allowed to do the even harder maths. This wouldn’t be such a big deal, if I didn’t need this subject to apply for my uni course. I want to do a computing course but I need maths. But I failed maths. Its not like I’m shit at computing or anything, its literally just maths. I can even handle maths in a computing context fine.

I hate how this is my only roadblock to applying for my course. To add to the extra level of how fucked I am, this is my last year at school. This year someone would be applying to uni, apprenticeships, collages or jobs to go onto after school. I wish I could just repeat the year at school, but I can’t. I will be pushed out to do something at collage to build up to uni. That would be fine if they had my level of qualification at my local collage. But they don’t, because I live in an impoverished area what would rather teach skills for work instead of the qualifications needed to get into a degree course at a university. Fun. The nearest collage that runs the course that I need to get into uni is in the big city, an hour away. Not to mention it’s at night school only and I’ll have to pay for it.