#imlou2018

3,500 yard swim 🏊‍♀️

Longest swim to date. I was super hungry during the last 1,000 yards. I got to the pool later than I wanted as usual and my breakfast didn’t hold me over for my workout. 😐

4 mile run in some new kicks cause I think my ghost 10s are wearing down. Now I can’t find a new pair in the stores. So i decided to try the ghost 11s. Well I don’t know if they’re gonna work or not. We’ll see.

Then I went and swam. Just in the pool for the long time.

I need to pack. I need to do a whole list of other things and I don’t want to do anything right now.

23 days until Louisville.

2 hour run that I did not want to do. I almost pushed it to tomorrow. I told myself if I really wasn’t feeling it I would do at least 30 minutes maybe an hour.

But that will make me stronger on ironman day. Right?

Well I got to my 30 minutes and felt pretty good. Continued to feel good til about mile 8. I was doing some walk run intervals sporadically. Cause let’s face I ain’t gonna be running a whole marathon on ironman day. So I need to figure out how that best works for me. I’ll just kep that up on these long runs.

The last two miles were pure physical and mental hell. Maybe had I left at 7 like I really wanted to I wouldn’t have over heated so much. My hips hurt though, hence this bath I’m in right now.

Swim time this morning. I unfortunately got out of bed late and fought with myself about going so I was late. So I cut it short by 300 yards.

Got part of my swim in this morning.

I was running behind meeting Tom so we could switch our phones to Verizon and get off the clinics plan. I got a new phone since mine was 4+ years old. Probably didn’t really need a fancy new phone but I love it. I went with the 8+ it’s big but the camera is amazing.

8 miles run and done!

I spent a lot of this run thinking about why I do what I do. I love my job and I love helping animals. That’s why I became a veterinarian. Vet school was a huge hurdle for me and as challenging as it was I enjoyed it. I’ve enjoyed working in this field since I started as a kennel worker. The whole veterinary field is a challenge everyday, some days more physically and some days more mentally challenging.

I apparently really enjoy a challenge. I’m stubborn and when I make up my mind I’m gonna do something I’m gonna do it. I was gonna try my hardest to stick it out at this practice. I didn’t want to give up after a year cause of the way I felt. I thought it would get better. My boss would finally some day treat me like a colleague rather than just a slave. He did some days, asking my opinions and what I thought. Then we had that meeting and he tried to make me feel so small and made it clear where I stood.

I am a strong, very independent woman, with an amazing husband who supports me with everything. I could not and my husband would not let someone treat me like that again, so we decided to move on. There is nothing they can do to retain me as a employee. I think he’s going to try to on Monday, but I have lost all respect for that man.

I thought a lot about my life as a triathlete. It’s also mentally and physically challenging. Running had always been my outlet and where I could think through things. Now I just use all three sports to move through my thoughts. Yet again I’ve set big goals for myself. Ironman Lousiville probably is not going to go as I had hoped. My training has been very much lacking. But I’m gonna try and grit it out and do my best because I’m just that stupid and crazy. I don’t like the idea of not finishing or a dnf, but it is what it is.

3 hour trainer ride and now a shower and I feel like a whole new person.

I’m still mad about missing my run. But ill tell you what not exercising the last week has really fucked with my emotions.