#imjustupset

Okay so in the beginning of May, on Mother's Day actually, I got into a huge fallout with my mom. I haven't really talked to her since and last week she asked me to have lunch last weekend and I never responded. The reason I stopped talking to her is because she is a alcoholic to the extreme and idk if she was drunk or what but we got into a fight and she told me I was a piece of shit, I won't get anywhere in life, I'm a disappointment. That's not even the worse, dealing with depression and anxiety it makes dealing with what she said worse. I've never had a good relationship with her, but I miss my younger sisters so much. When my mom first started becoming a alcoholic I practically raised them. I haven't seen them in 4 months and I miss my sister so much. Also thanks to my mom my step family, who was apart of my life for 15 years, won't talk to me. A lot of people are telling me you only have one mom and such but I'm so tired of having someone always tearing me down like she does. I really need some advice, because I feel like I should talk to her but I don't think I'm ready.

But I won't 'cause its not worth it...