#imgoingtomissyousomuch

This whole study abroad thing is becoming way too real way too fast. I'm super excited to go and all but it does mean being away from you for 4 months. Like I feel like I need more time or time needs to slow down just a bit. I feel like I'm going to blink and I'll already be on a plane flying a million miles away from you.

I have a problem. So a friend of mine, well, one of my best, closest friends leaves for college in about a week. I'm helping him move in and everything and we're gonna chill and it's going to be great. My issue is the fact that I'm moving to Savannah, GA in about a month. But here's the story first I guess. When I first met him like 7 years ago we hated each other. Like really fucking hated each other haha. And then this last year or two we got to know each other and we started working at the same store together and he became the only person I ever would talk to. Honestly i see him more than i do my real family. But, I went through some very dark times this past winter and thought I was by myself and alone and that wasn't the case at all. Because when I thought I had no one and I wanted to die, well my best friend.. My brother was there beside me I guess walking silently next to me on my journey. The fact that I'm so proud of him and everything he's accomplished (and it makes me feel like a proud parent thinking about it,) makes it so much worse. Because as much shit as I give him and even though until Christmas I'll "barrel-ly" see him I have nothing but the up most respect for him and I truly do love him more than anyone PROPably even more than myself. He was there for me through the panic attacks and self harm days when I felt so "meh" and all of the good days where everything was great. He means so much more to me than anyone ever could. The easiest way to explain it would be like this, if anything bad ever happened to him I wouldn't lose my friend or my neighbor. I'd well lose my fucking mind but more importantly I'd lose a very important part of me. I firmly believe that The people that come into our lives are there for a reason, maybe to teach us a lesson and what he taught me was that there's always a life worth living. So David, even though I gotta go my own way and you gotta go yours and we have to go to the start of something new, aaaand I won't have anyone to sing a long to Boston or Asia with in my car, I wish nothing but the best of luck to you and nothing but eternal happiness. Oh and since I'm really bad at good byes this is just a "I'll see you soon". So I'll see you soon. Bitch. Oh and uh, eat a dick or ya know blow me haha. Love your friend, brother, associate, and hsm sing along partner, Kean

I can't decide wether or not to spend our last night together in bed with you, or get up and study because these three incoming finals are going to kill me. They already are.