im a fucking idiot. i had the whole world in front of me and i watched as i turned my back on it. like an idiot i left him alone when he was broken. i lost my fucking soul mate. i might as well be dead on the inside cos nothing else means anything to me. with out him, i am nothing. know that if i smile and if i laugh, there will always be a dark, gloomy cloud of nothingness behind it. he will never see me as katy ever again. i hate that i was stuck in this stupid world doing things i would have never done before. im a dumbass for wanting him to love me the way i was being, he only wanted the best for me. i got my freedom at the cost of my happiness. what is the fucking point man. kill me the fuck now.