#ima mo

I can't believe it's already been a year since that day.

Doesn't feel like it at all.

I do find it funny that I dreamt of him the night prior to this morning...however, it wasn't the happy realization that he's alive that normally goes on in my dreams. For some reason, in this dream, as I was holding him I realized he was dead and then he disappeared and I woke up. Is there not a single place left where I can be with him, I wonder.

After being coerced out to eat with oka-san, to-san, and otouto-kun at that local Mexican restaurant that was recently expanded, came back home and lit some incense for him and re-did my nails to Saihate. After that, did other various memorial service things. And set up incense in my room at a make-shift Buddhist-esque shrine next to Charlie. And now my room and myself smells like it...apparently I'm the only one who likes that smell. To-san to oka-san to Suki to inu-chan mo "komoi" tte...maa, the dog was more like "BARK BARK GROWL" at it. l'D

Another surprise was the only friend/family member who said anything along the lines of "my condolences" was Kyo...which is surprising both because he's kind of aloof and I wouldn't expect something like that from him and this is kind of a big deal to me. So for no one to say anything about it is...well, it seems off, doesn't it? Maa, I don't think those close to me understand how much he meant to me. But that's fine. I don't really expect them to. It's not like I'm open about these kinds of things. Or anything for that matter.

In the evening, went to get tacos with Suki and Kyo...then watched an episode of Avatar...and then played a bit of DN. Moved Luis over to Saya's server...because he's still low leveled and I can do that >o! I don't have much time to keep playing DN until school starts up again, but I want to max out those two...Saya because she's my main and I'll always be a mage at heart...and Luis because his hp/def is amazing and so he can solo all the things and get all the rares for Saya. lD

Tomorrow...tomorrow is anime night! Genki ni naru to iin desu ga~ l'D

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I've felt like drawing a lot lately...though everyone I draw ends up crying! D: