#im grumbling

Oh. My. Lord.

Now there are many things I could complain about but the thing that stick with me the most - the toothbrush.

So the bit when she agrees to move in with him but needs to pick up some stuff from her apartment. The very first (in fact the only thing you see her grab) her very generic, basic toothbrush!

Is it a magic toothbrush? Is she sentimental about it?

Male affection for example is Sakurai working his butt off making Smash Bros Ultimate the best it can be because his friend Satoru Iwata asked him to make a smash game for the switch and it was the last thing he asked of him before he died.

What is the point of an LED bulb if I am going to be burning through my batteries because I left the decoration on by accident during the day? Or god forbid just the night?

in a few weeks im graduating and while thats  great and something ive struggled with achieving for the last 8 years the issue is that i’m overly scared of what comes next.

I’ve told my parents something about me going to university to study Archivist stuff and history.

But i feel like thats such a me move, because its not because i really want to but because i  a) think thats the right move and b) i have my entire life been at school, elementary school, high school, college, the only times i wasnt was when i was a baby and those two years i was working after dropping out of college.

so university feels like me just pushing to have some goal for the next 3-4 years and push this uncomfortable question away from me.

The issue also arises with work. Under my current situation i cant get paid more than a certain amount or i’ll lose my disability benefits which once i move out i will absolutely need to you know...live.

but that creates a scenario where i cant just apply for a job like a “normal” person but rather would have to go through a social worker which is demeaning to say the least.

Only way to escape that cycle would be to get a job that pays more than my benefits and just opt out of them which isnt impossible but again it would still require me either going through a social worker or going to a job and having to explain the situation with a new employer.

Maybe im making a mountain out of a mole hill.

Maybe i should go back to my old job (its literally a workshop for disabled people, where we put salt in saltshakers among other things, its run by the state)

But  again that creates a certain comfort zone and i feel like im just making up excuses??