i think sometimes i can almost forget that i’m trans. like, more in the sense that it’s just like. i’m a boy. and there isn’t a need to add anything more to that. and like, on some level, of course i want that. i want to just - Be. but that’s not how things works and also, like, i love being trans. and to simply call me a boy simplifies too much about me and about my experiences. 

but anyway, like, i don’t know. i don’t know how to say what i’m trying to say. but like, oppression is so much more than an individual act. like, that’s why it’s absolutely not the same thing for a trans person to say “die cis scum” as it is for cis people to say that to us. because they are the ones who one, have and do actively kill us and two, have the power to set up laws that effectively do that - whether literally or just in the sense of stripping us of our identity and making it so we can’t even be us

and i just. i Hate when i see cis lgb people show absolutely no compassion or empathy towards trans people. or act like we’re separate from them? (which yeah sure like there are different issues we face, but it’s rooted in the same shit.) and just yeah like, we don’t matter to them. even when it’s because of trans women that we have the rights we have. trans women and trans people as a whole have given so, so much to the community and to society as a whole. (which, related, every transphobic drag/drag race fan can just literally die right now thanks.)

but we’re always pushed aside. trans rights are always lesser - even when trans people have the highest suicide rates, are murdered at such a high level for being trans, where adults threaten to kill trans children. 

i just. i don’t know. i’m at this point where i don’t even know what to do. like, i’m going to vote, but what politicians are speaking out for trans rights? voting democrat is going to give me a higher likelihood of them not passing laws that would hurt me, but you know that we’re something a politician would absolutely use as a bargaining chip to get something that matters more.