#illgetbetter

"All these shortcomings are a punishment for the disappointment I am". This piling burden is a consequence I am bearing for being me. Thinking that I deserve this shit seems to be the only way for me to carry on. It helps me endure this life. I become more comfortable in this misery. I don't have to struggle this way. I carry on.

Even if light takes time to fall on people, your eyes are faster. From the strand of hair that is out of place to the chipped nail on the little toe. From the way they said hi to the way their body shifted when they walked, from their favorite color to their dreams. There is nothing you leave unjudged. You must be thinking that you’re living the perfect life but just know, none of us here, would trade places with you.

I was looking for the word ‘grace’ in the dictionary and found you instead. The way you move and how your eyes follow, how could one not fall in love? Somehow everything seems to fall in place as you sway across the floor. God doesn't like to see his art struggling perhaps he paved the path of flowers for you. Tell me how does it feel to be so loved? Jealousy is a disease and I certainly have it. If I could walk in your shoes, would you allow me the luxury of living your life, just once? How must it feel for you to be able to dance your way through while I still struggle to pave mine?

i went to work this morning; It was so hard to even get there if i’m honest, but i booked out the small meeting room and sat by myself. But it didn’t help, i couldn’t concentrate so at lunch time I came home.. Being home somehow made me feel calmer; I don’t know if it was the beer I had with (for) my lunch.... but anyway, i worked my arse off this afternoon so i’m feeling a little better. Just wish there was an off button for this up and down emotion - [ I literally stopped right here and went and watched porn, that is how high my distraction rate is] - so now i’ve lost track... either way.... i think this should calm down soon.. we all have storms in our life just about waiting for the boat to stop rocking.. it will.

#inktober stupid #werewolf sketches #idontdrawoften #itsday1 #illgetbetter #drawlloween #practicingdrawing (at Chalk-Full Studio)

Rookie? #a6300 #sonyalpha #photography #forests #illgetbetter (at Guildwood)

I found a net to work in my balance while striking! 👊🏽 #illgetbetter #balanceiskey #shadowboxing #outdoorworkout #urbangym #teamoyama #10thplanetirvine #scolesdang (at Settlers' Park)