Y/n and I had been together for a short time now. But we had known each other for years. John had introduce us when he and her father were hunting together. 

Y/n was only 2 years younger than me. It had started off as an innocent crush, than become more like an obsession. When I was in college I had decided that I needed to get over it, do I dated Jessica. her features far from Y/n’s. 

2000′s 

I was trying hard to forget about her, but all was lost when Dean of course had to come and take me away trying to find John. After the horrific event that happened with Jessica I had disassociated and wanted nothing to do with relationships. 

Just when I told myself that I didn’t want anything. Y/n called Dean saying that she was in danger, something about a hunt going wrong and pissing off the wrong people. 

Dean looked over at me. When we were kids he was the only one that had known about my crush on her, “Sam, I can ignore her. Say that we can’t help her, it’s all up to you lover boy.” Dean said teasing me. 

“Well she’s in danger. I can hold it together.” I said. That had been a whole fucking lie. I hadn’t held it together, seeing her hurt and in danger had set me off. I spoke to Dean while Y/n was asleep in the backseat. “Dean, let her stay with us. I don’t what it is, but her being hurt... it just feels wrong to leave her off somewhere.” 

He looked in the rear view mirror and sighed heavily. “Whatever, you want.” He said and kept driving. She had gone through everything with us. My deal with Lucifer, helping Dean, trying to find me after Dean makes his demon deal. Stayed with me even though I’m drinking demon blood, and everything else. 

It had landed us in the Men of letters bunker. With everything we could ever need. The 3 of us hadn’t separated on purpose since 2005. It had taken so many years to finally tell her the truth. 

2012

“Y/n, I know this life isn’t meant for love.I know that we could die tomorrow, so I am going to say this. You don’t have to say it back, but I love you Y/n.” I said. She smiled and wrapped her arms around me. 

She kissed my cheek. “I love you too Sam. It took you long enough.” She giggled. “ I thought I was going to have to start chasing Dean.” Y/n teased me. 

From that point forward everything was about Y/n. It was about keeping her safe. If a hunt was to risky I was stuck to her ass like glue. All plans were made to make sure Y/n was kept safe. If she was sick, I was there. If she was hurt from a hunt and I was too, I’d ignore my own pain and fix her up first.

Like I said it was an honest obsession to keep her safe. Dean has always teased me, but my brother wasn’t at that point anyways a relationship person.His own relationship ending horribly Lisa and Benny not ever able to remember who he was, I think it really broke him. 

He covered that up with hunter everyday, everything revolved it. My everything was Y/n, and she was absolutely okay with it. 

2020

After the year that we had been together. We had never gone through something like this, a deadly disease kicking everyone in the ass. Nothing that us hunters could do. 

The fact that we were always stuck inside, finding new way to make our life exciting, something about the sickness made people not get hunted by the monsters. 

I will say it was odd to see nothing bad on the news about people dying from ‘animal attacks’. Dying of covid, and covid rules, and being locked inside was what rocked the news. 

But at the end of 2020, it was christmas. Y/n and I were both avid readers. Y/n had stacks of book in the the library corners, no more space for all her books, mine were starting to overfill the empty space in extras rooms. 

So has a gift I had gone to Ikea and bought a couple of different bookshelves. One was a beautiful white, large corner bookshelf. The other was a wooden large  shelf unit. One that you could put little bins inside the units. 

2021

It had only been a few days and Y/n was getting annoyed with the boxes of these shelves sitting in the corner like her books. New years was over, so she looked over at me and said, “Sam when we are we putting these together?” she asked. 

“Well first they’re your gift so there's no we, it’s all me. Second, whenever you want them to be put together.” I answered keeping my eyes on my phone. ‘Okay smartass, I want them to be put together now!” Y/n said with a giggle. 

I looked over at her, and I got up putting my phone down. I pushed the huge table as far as I could trying to give myself the maximum amount of space. I pulled the boxes into the open space, and Y/n spaced out while watching the tv. 

After hours of being stuck on how to build the damn bookshelves I whispered “Where are the instruction at?” Out of the corner of my eye I saw Y/n slower look over at me, then once again I said “Where are the fucking instructions at?” 

“They’re right here.” Y/n said lifting them from the seat I was sitting in earlier. “Honey? You seem pissed.” I looked over at her, my face telling her to stop talking.

Y/n went back to her show for another couple of hours, before she turned back around to look for the progress I had made. “Don’t you even say I told you so.” I said.

Y/n giggled and smiled. “I wasn’t going to say that.... I totally told you so.” She said instead. “Look I know I should have used the instructions, but I was trying to be more manly.” I said. 

After I said that Y/n got up from her seat, came over and said “You’re already manly baby, but I’ll give you kisses to make you feel better”  She said and then kissed my right cheek, then moved to my left cheek. 

She moved down kissing my neck, leaving a few hickies, and then she got my lap. She grinded her hips against mine. “We might have to finish this project in the morning.” I said. “Hmmm, I think so.”