#ihopeyouneverseethis

Look, I'm not paying google for more cloud storage space, and I don't want to actually get rid of my photos. I don't post on any actual socials (you know the ones where people you know can actually see you). I have an actual tumblr.hell and all but I just sorta wanted to nest this away from it. I have a hard time getting rid of photos that bug me or remind me, but I also don't look at them. This one was.... Rough. To put it lightly. TBC in another post before i delete it out of my drive and off my devices for good

1. I am selfish 2. I hurt 3. I royally fuck things up

i have no idea what to think of anything anymore I want 'I did type your name her but then edited it out oops' to be here n I don’t want to have to leave as soon as he does fuckmyself always timing I’m the worst for it and the shitty part is that I don’t even realize that I’m in a wierd way doing it to myself if you back up “why” all these shitty events in my life happen it’s all my fault I hate it , it makes me hate myself and wanting and doing are different things words are turning into nothing I need something real at some point

"Can't help but think about it all the time .. and you know what's on my mind" - J.Cole