I have a choice.
"You are not alone honey. There is a woman out there, no probably more than one woman, actually I can guarantee you that there are more women out there than me and you would probably like to know that are going through the same shit you are and a lot worse. I was married at 16 yrs old, my excuse to leave home. And he would beat me everyday and rape me, marital rape. I was at a party once and in front of a crowd of 40 people my husband admitted to it. He went on and on, and said, 'My wife has the most disgusting twat in the world, probably sleeps with all the neighbors...' And then he said 'By the way where is that piece of shit? Where is she?' And as everyone turned around to actually start looking for me, I ran. I ran home. And he beat me that night, for embarrassing him, for embarrassing him for leaving the party. Imagine sleeping at night, just fast asleep, to opening up your eyes in complete blackness and being sodomized... Or waking up to your 210 pound husband on top of you forcing himself inside your ass and all you can do I cry as he shoves your face in the pillow. I couldn't go to my parents house, how embarrassing would that be? Ha! Because the last thing you said to them was that you couldn't stand another single day living with them. You can't go to grandmas.... Anyways, I am not telling you what to do but what I am saying honey, is you have a choice..." For all the women in the world, or women that are no longer here on Earth, that I do not know personally but do fall victim from spousal physical/emotional abuse to the same extent or worse than I do, I want to promise you from my heart, that I will appreciate the fact that I do have a choice. And I will make my choice not for myself but for you.
