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It's 11:39 PM on my clock, I'm listening to the sound of the vehicles here. They're really quite loud, really. We're on the 5th floor and damn I could still hear the honking of the jeepneys and those ravishing tires of the drag racers. Setting aside, Here I am typing some sort of entry because its been a while since I last updated my site. 

So what am I going to talk about tonight.. Hmmmmm. Nothing is particular well, I'm busy with my sidelines, trying to find a way to earn money so that I can buy the things I want and the food I want to eat. Speaking of something I want to buy-- a new phone? I just lost my phone today and it sucks. But nah, maybe I can just save instead of buying things that doesn't really matter.

I'm guessing that you're getting bored with what I'm saying. Well, this is the main thing that I'd like to share Have you ever have this longing that you also want something to last. Longing for something to be ideal in your perception. Longing for someone to hug or kiss, to exchange text messages, to date, to be with in short someone to love. Longing to be overjoyed without worrying that something tragic would happen. Longing for someone to understand. Longing for the perfect life you want to have and just say "lalalala" (of course you don't say that, you know what I mean.) We all have that. 

Isn't it a great thing to believe that someday your longings would happen? Isn't it a treacherous thing to believe that these things are more that just longings? How I wish things in life were easy to achieve. How I wish life was less complicated. At some point you just realize that having that kind of life is next to impossible. It's just so hard to achieve, it's too much. But I'm telling you, DON'T GIVE UP! Just reach up. It's worth it. The things you want in life is always worth the wait and good things happen to those who patiently wait for it. 

One day, you'll just wake up and things are okay. It will be okay soon so, cheer up!

I'm blessed that there's this person who I ignored because of fear and trust issues. He's not much of a person, I don't even know if he's serious about his studies but He prays for me every night and I admire him for that. It's been ages since I encountered a Christ-centered person. It's just so rare and amazing.