#igor oro

As I stand on the street corner and watch these two roads meet, I suddenly feel at peace.

Maybe it’s because at my feet lies the intersection of two distinct paths merging at the point of vulnerability.

Maybe it’s because it’s a reminder of you and me. And the blissful bond we once shared. Without a care in the world, my arms wrapped around you to shelter you from the cold.

Two souls kept warm by each other’s company.

Two hearts dancing in the rain playfully.

Two minds with the same thing in mind.

You want me to be yours and I want you to be mine.

I don’t know maybe I’m crazy.

Maybe time has finally out played me.

Maybe I stopped seeing beauty in the little things.

Maybe I’ve stopped appreciating the gift life brings.

Maybe I’m in over my head.

Or maybe I just miss the familiar contours of your body under my chalk white sheets of my bed.

I don’t know maybe this is normal.

Maybe I stopped being myself after you left.

Maybe this is all a test.

Maybe I failed and I couldn’t clean up the mess.

Maybe that’s why the rain suddenly feels colder on my skin.

Maybe that’s why when I try to apologize I don’t know where to begin or where to end.

All these things I’ve typed up in my mind that I wanna tell you I just can’t bring myself to hit send.

Maybe I fucked up and I won’t admit it.

Maybe I’m a coward.

Seems like I’ve got all the time in the world, maybe I should do something about it.

I mean, every minute without you feels like an hour.

Maybe I’m a fool for distancing myself from you.

Maybe that’s why I couldn’t admit that I loved you.

I loved the way the sun wrapped around you, like a dress woven from strands of light.

I loved the way you stayed close to me, as we held hands walking the empty streets at night.

I loved the way your eyes glimmered with hope, like a diamond pulled from the earth polished for the first time, or the way your smile could break through the eyes of the blind.

I loved your innocence, untainted by time and inbound by fate.

I loved your curiosity, and how you were cautious enough, enough to know what’s at stake.

The only problem was I was too used to heartbreak.

I became best friends with disappointment and I lost my belief in fate. So familiar with bad timing, I was always at the wrong place, until i realized I couldn’t go on seeing you as just a friend; I got so good at telling lies that even I started to believe them.

So now I’m gonna out my heart on the line and speak from my soul to let you know that your touch is really the only thing I can feel anymore. The glisten in your eyes, is the only thing I can see anymore. I wanna bring you close and whisper in your ear like lovers do, these soft spoken words weighed down heavy with truth.

Because honestly, all I want is to hold you as the sun goes down and not let go until it comes back up. I wanna be that warm connection that you crave whenever you feel a certain touch, I wanna be that rush of adrenaline that envelopes you as you get close enough to the climatic peck of a moment you’ve never felt before, that heavenly moment when you can’t take it anymore, then I want to be arms you fall into as you slip into a peaceful sleep, relieved of all that tension; let your guard down I’ll be your wall of protection. I wanna be the ship to steer you in the right direction, and if ever you should hit an iceberg and feel like you’re about to drown, I’ll be the cocoon of oxygen that surrounds you; Breathe me into your dreams, I want to be the seams that bind all you emotions together, I wanna be your fantasy, your idea of forever, I wanna be the roof over your head to shelter you from the rough weather, I wanna be the guy that sweeps you off your feet; I wanna be the pair of eyes you suddenly meet in a crowded place, I want to be the face of everything you’ve ever though you didn’t deserve, the voice of everything they said you couldn’t achieve.

Because the truth is..

You can become anything you dare to believe.

But most importantly..

I want you to know..

That even though this love of our might not have lasted. I would still walk with you to the end of the world..