#iewritealso

Written : November 13, 2018

We often hear people say pregnancy is such a blessing. And indeed, yes, it is a blessing given by God. And having such one makes gazillion reasons to live meaningfully in this world. 

My First Born was unexpected. Still in the peak of my career, still in early 20s, just starting in the so-called young professional world. In short, I was not ready. Yet things change when she came and my points of view became clearer. I randomly see myself priotizing her and her needs over my wants and personal leisures. Everything straighten up. My routine changed into home, work, home, work. No more sideways. And if there will be, for sure it will be with my family.

Our family may look well-off. Thanks to the people who supports us all the way. Especially to my mom. We have home and shelter. But like other families who are starting to build their dreams, we also encountered a lot of trials, struggled in so many ways, got broken, became jobless and faced lots of challenges. It wasn’t easy but we’re thankful to God because he never failed to guide us in choosing the right path. 

Then an opportunity knocked in and we have to live in distance for 2 long years. It was terrible at first yet gradually accepted the changes for it’s all for our family. To live the life we wanted from the start. Because sometimes you have to deal with sacrifices to be able to achieve something you are craving for, for such a long time. 

After 2 years of waiting, finally, our family were together again. The love and the bind never fail and the happiness are still irreplaceable and undeniable. 

Our family is complete. Nothing to ask for. Until one day, we decided to try to add another one to our little family. Months of trying and still we got negative result and so we let God decide when will He give us another one. 

Time came and what we’ve been praying for was granted, it was the 14th of February when we found out I was carrying a baby. We were surprised and grateful at the same time. 

Carrying my second baby wasn’t that smooth at all. I’m in my early 30s and felt all the symptoms of being pregnant. But in my mind, I know I can surpass everything for the baby that I really wanted from the start. 

There were lots of ups and downs along the way. Dealing with the cravings inside, health issues, my responsibility with my first-born and having financial crisis. It was a roller coaster ride. But again, having faith in God to surpass everything is all we’ve been holding on. 

And then my youngest came earlier than we expected. It was such a dejavu, no, actually it was a surreal feeling repeating all the procedures of CS delivery. I was truly in pain managing to be strong for my lil one. 

Being a mother completed me as a woman. Having children mean obligations and responsibilities that somebody is depending on you. That you are thinking more than yourself and deciding for more people. Being a mother means you are carrying lives of people you care for and love for. And that they become your world.