#icarlynatural

ok so. here's the lore:

dean knows that cas sees Thee righteous man and Thee mission as the world’s catalyst for benevolently foretold change - an untranslatable and wonderful More™ for dean than he sees for himself. yikes @ Thee mission immediately involving cas giving dean an order only to see how Perhaps The Sacrifices ie: the failed mission in the beginning. cas and dean’s view of what World means is Wildly different in a macro vs micro sense, ie: when they’re on the bench when dean is like hey look. humans. my world. over the course of season 4 and fkn quickly for a man w trust issues dean switches gears from seeing cas as a hostile maybe-enemy to a potential ally/”friend” - he sees cas’ potential for change and Perceives how free will could be wonderful for them with varying degrees of accuracy.

cas legit helped our boy live life and breathe air. it's the simplest sequence of this whole thing.

anyway. In scenes where cas is Reminded by the other angels to stay in his lane, dean begins to have faith that there must be a way to somehow encourage his cute lil rebellious streak. weapons are a symbolic form of trust in spn which is why the shots go 1. the First hand-to-hand exchange w the note, then 2. the demon knife, and, most significantly, 3. the angel blade, which oh wow cas u rly let them. Hold. the one thing that could kill you. anyway. cas sees the "get there" as saving the world; dean sees that too, sure, but also he’s a huge dweeb with a crush new friend who has Zero concepts of feelings and the wonderful experiences of humanity, see 4. dean handing cas money as the Ultimate Trust lmao (as in,,, trusting cas w his humanity much to dissect here in a non-weaponized way).

However. how. are we gonna get there if dean. Doesn’t Force cas to look at the reality of Thee mission and fall. Cas has that whole Moment where he Feels and then witnesses subsequent forbidden and Very Human shit as real and important. this is pretty much dean’s thesis of s4 and he Will break his goddamn hand for cas to understand how he feels.

It works! Cas wakes up and crosses that dang divide, joining the human “nation” (~nation here is defined as a community that shares a collective identity - team free will~). Ofc this is his Big Moment but also 1. the blending of dean and cas’ developing definitions of ~wonderful change~; cas’ being alignment with god’s true intentions for humanity, and dean’s being cas' alignment with dean the reality of humanity since 2. Cas realizes that there’s no chance for them uh dean humanity unless he takes one - as he most recently did prior to the green room scene in dropping info about the antichrist ooooh.

anyway, no choice now but to stay posi!!! looking on the bright side!!! Team free will baybay!!! it’s not like there are devastating times ahead come what may, fake it til you make it in every situation.

Now that cas is realizing all his unhinged glory and unknowingly saying shit like “fuck fate” to the literal individual who is writing their story as meant to be, let’s go!! Save!!! The world!!! Bottom of the ninth, w cas on his side giving his best, dean can tackle the rest and finally able to be the righteous man. i think.

in the very very least let's consider this canon adjacent ok cool

MERRY CHRISTMAS SEQ I LOVE YOU SOOOO MUCH