Is it worth it ? I can't tell.
I can't tell if being tired all the time, faking smiles, taking pills is worth it. All this to be happy ? All this to make it happen ? And to make what happen, by the way(?). I don't have a plan.
I can't tell if it's worth it. To fake happiness all the time so I can make people believe I'm fine and ready for every obstacle.
What will I get in the end ? Can you tell me ? Can you, please, tell me ?
I won't be a millionaire (thank god, I would be a total bitch).
I won't know new things (everyday is the fucking same thing all over again).
I won't be loved (I can't let people in anymore. I'm no good).
Can you tell me then, that the effort I put in everything I do, will be worth it ? Because if it's not, I might stop this everyday fight. And I'm afraid to stop. Stopping is dying. I can't die.
Am I worth anything ? Can you tell me?
Because I just can't tell.