2015 has been a year of ups and downs for me. I finally had made progress on my body and was used to a healthier lifestyle. But when school started again, old habits came back. I forgot about eating healthy, stopped exercising, and ultimately became unaware (yet again) of what I was doing to my body. It was frustrating to notice how all of my hardwork was yet again wasted. But I have learned that things happen for a reason. God has allowed for it to happen for a completely good reason. I guess he wanted me to learn that when I finally start seeing results, it should be more of a motivation and to just keep on going. My past experiences has taught me a lot about myself. 1. I get so upset when somebody tells me that I'm getting fat. I mean, It's okay for other people to say that to me, I am completely aware of it anyways, but saying that without even giving any prior greetings like a simple "hello?" Or "how are you?" That is so rude! That is so not a good conversation starter. But then again, it is up to me to choose the way I will take it. 2. I tend to become inconsistent. This is one of the things that I really have to change about myself. This year I'm gonna have to want it more than anythings else. I used to think that I'm obsessed of getting thin, but I guess the reason why I failed the last time is because I wanted it for the wrong reasons. The reason that I had in mind was for me to simply look good and to finally be able to put on better clothes. I now know that that isn't a good enough reason and that I'ved become too superficial. My fitness journey shouldn't be fueled by narcissistic tendencies. It has to be fueled by more important things. 3. I make too much excuses. This one, I really intend to do away with. Back then I though that it would be just fine to think that "oh, I'll just have one more bite" or "it's okay to not exercise today, I'm already tired anyway". I now know that everything that has happened to me is all completely my fault. I should take more responsibility on what I do to my body. ------------------------------------------------------------------- So far, those are the only bad habits that I usually do. I don't intend to further squeeze my brain only to seek for the things that I had done wrong. I want my year 2016 to be a year of positivity, so whatever I have done wrong in 2015, will only be a reminder of the great lessons that I have learned and I will make it my motivation to just keep chasing my goals 💕 Today, January 2 2016, will be the very last day that I will regret everything that I have done. Today will be the last day that I will ever look negatively at myself. It is time to love my body and respect it for it not all for my own. My body it God's temple, so I owe to myself and my God to take care of it and cherish it. I will go on my fitness journey fueled by the intention taking care of it for as long as I live. My fitness journey is no longer for superficial and narcisstic reasons. To be healthy, to live life to the fullest is my goal. This year, I AM IN CONTROL. I AM GOING TO MAKE IT HAPPEN AND IT IS GOING TO HAPPEN. 💪🏻 GAME ON!