ISAAC. @replicaticnsâ ⹠ 13 November  /  Coffee Shop Â
Using Isaac for information was supposed to be a short-term thing. A brief assignment for the sake of seeing what he knew about the peace treaty in the tense, uncertain weeks that had followed its initial proposal; a seemingly accidental meet-cute that had been entirely orchestrated and sweetened all the more by her influence over his emotions. But it proves all too easy to send him a message whenever she needs something ( intel; conversation; attention ), choosing the same coffee shop ( our coffee shop, she makes a point of calling it, because -- well -- sheâs played this game before, knows which strings to pull to let this marionette show dance to her own tune ). Fingers wrapped around a white-china mug, the heat of her pumpkin spice latte warming, she watches the Blackburn mutant sit down and feels the usual rush of adrenaline at her own affiliation being unknown to him. âI had a dream about you last night,â she muses in greeting, a faint smile toying across her lips. âWe were being chased through my old high school and hid in a changing room-- it was weird.â The lie is easily spun. Anastasia pushes a second mug towards him. âIf itâs still hot, itâs a latte. If not, itâs an ice latte minus the ice.â
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An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works
Chapters: 1/?
Fandom: American Horror Story, American Horror Story: Apocalypse
Rating: Explicit
Relationships: Michael Langdon/Reader
Summary
Michael Langdon has arrived at the Outpost and you find yourself vying to secure your place at The Sanctuary. You're willing to do almost anything to secure your future. Almost. Though the world has changed, you have not. You're dedicated to your beliefs and refuse to compromise your innocence to gain favor, which is exactly why Michael wants you. As the last virgin on Earth, you've been chosen to serve a purpose that threatens everything you stand for.
You're a good girl. You really are. The problem is that Michael Langdon makes you want to do very bad things.
You donât trust the visitor.
You donât respect the way he shatters the Outpostâs monotony with the promise of sanctuary for some, and damnation for the unworthy. You donât like the pressure of meeting his unknowable expectations or the way those expectations can be felt in his piercing, leonine gaze.
You donât like that he sees you. Youâd grown accustomed to blending in with the background over the long months. You diligently perform the tasks expected of your rank as a Gray. You do not step out of line, you do not draw a curious eye. Your life has been reduced to being a servile shadow to those more privileged. Your pride is wounded, but it is a small price to pay for the promise of safety. Thatâs how the game is played.
Until now.
Michael Langdon was here to revise the rules and turn the current order on its purple and gray head, and there was nothing you could do but bite your nails and hope you said just the right thing to please him.
Please him, you scoff. You glare at your reflection, annoyed with how normal subservience has become to you. You hold your gaze in search of the confident spark of a young woman whoâd once been proudly self-assured, determined and outspoken. A woman that was forced to take a step back under the new world order. A woman tucked away, indefinitely sleeping.
For me, you amend. For The Sanctuary. You untangle your hair from its ridiculous topknot and comb through the tangles with your fingers. You groan as you massage the soreness from your scalp.
You begin to strip off your gray garb. The shapeless dress and dirty apron pool at your feet. Chill sweeps over your skin, and you are quick to pull on the dress you save for special occasions. The white cotton is soft against your skin. The waist is fitted, the hem falling just below your knees. You admire the sweep of the neckline below your collarbone and take a moment to unreservedly appreciate your reflection. Itâs been so long since you felt pretty.
You brush your wavy hair behind your shoulders and bite the red back into your lips. Your cheeks are already mottled with your nerves.
You donât trust the visitor, and he probably doesnât trust you. The interview is your one opportunity to give him reason to. Give him something if it means ascertaining your safety. Youâd do anything to ensure your future. Well...almost.
Your eyes fall to the peek of cleavage exposed by the loose garment and you self-consciously pull it back up. With quiet fingers, you adjust the chain of the gold crucifix lying against your clavicle, making sure your modesty is hinted in a way that spares you from having to draw any awkward boundaries.
Itâs an interview, not an audition. You inhale deeply, exhale slowly, and try to muster the courage required to leave your room.
Your steps are slow, yet purposeful, as you make your way along the servantâs corridor, down the staircase, past the library, around a corner and down another hall until you find yourself at a bulky, dark wood door. Your hand is trembling as you raise your fist to knock. However, before your knuckles have a chance to rap against the door, it slides open. You hesitate just before stepping inside.
You anticipate him to be standing on the other side of the threshold, waiting with a calculative gaze. What you find is an empty room, lit by a dozen wax candles. A fire crackles in the stone fireplace. Its flickering light makes the shadows in the room contort in a way that is unsettling. The air in here is stuffy as you step further inside. You can feel it cling to your skin, leaving it balmy.
When the doors behind you close, you turn to face them. The voice in your ear is spoken from behind. âYouâre late.â
You gasp at the unexpected presence at your shoulder and stumble a few steps away. Your hand is pressed over your heart to keep it still.
Langdon is watching you with patient passivity, leaving you to believe his words were not meant as a reprimand. Regardless, heâs made it clear that heâs keeping track of your missteps. Heâs moved the first chess piece. The game has begun, and itâs your move.
âI still got here first,â you counter. Your words are childish. Before you have time to regret your impulse to be argumentative, you notice Langdonâs lip curl. He likes the less docile side of you. Good. You straighten your posture to regain the appearance of composure though the feeling of it seems to have fled the moment you felt him breathe against your ear. âSo, how are we going to do this?â
He just barely tilts his head. His strong brows crease and draw a shadow over his eyes that somehow manages to heighten their penetrative intensity. âDo what?â
Now you wish youâd bitten your tongue, because you donât know how to answer him when heâs looking at you as if heâs read you for the umpteenth time and heâs bored. How can you continue this show of confidence when you no longer have the backbone needed to maintain it? âArenât you going to ask me questions?â
âHas someone told you I would?â
You shake your head. âI havenât spoken to anyone. That would be cheating.â
âGood girl.â He says this with mocking adulation to drive home how unimpressed he is by your virtuousness.
You flush, embarrassed with the way heâs making you feel ashamed for doing the right thing. Heat is in your cheeks and neck, and you curse the way your body betrays how easily he can make you uncomfortable. The telltale reaction only worsens as he steps closer until heâs looming before you. Instinct is screaming for you to flee, but you hold your ground, lift your chin and meet his eyes.
Looking at him is like looking at the sun. His beauty is the sort that demands attention. You find yourself conscious of him, whether you want to be or not. You have to look at him. It feels mandatory that you admire the sharp cut of his jawline, his hooded sapphire gaze, the fullness of his mouth and the fall of his gold hair. He is the morning star that rises to put the glory of the sky to shame. Youâre compelled to marvel, though his image leaves you burning.
âThe world is no longer a place where your moral integrity will earn you the brownie points to get you where you want. Those were someone elseâs rules.â His gaze drops to the pendant of Christ hanging from your neck before returning to you, amused. âNot mine.â
You donât like the suggestive implication in his tone. You dislike even more how you react to it, a very different sort of heat now tingling across your skin. âWhat are your rules?â
âThatâs the best part: there arenât any.â
Concern crinkles between your brows as you try to comprehend what heâs saying.
âAnything is fair game. However,â he begins to slowly circle you as he speaks. âIf you lie, I will know. If you hedge, I will know. And if you try to trick me, I will know, and this interview will be over, and you will die here painfully.â He pauses at your shoulder, his mouth once more at your ear and his breath hot against your neck. âAre we clear?â
Your heartbeat would give a hummingbirdâs wing a run for its money. âThose sound like rules to me.â
You can hear the amusement in the purr of his voice. âMerely preferences. You are allowed to lie to me, you are allowed to avoid my questions and you are allowed to attempt to fool me, just as I, in turn, am allowed to kill you for it.â
âDoes that mean I am allowed to kill you?â
âYouâre allowed to try.â He returns to his place before you, his long hair casting half his face in shadow. âDo you want to?â
âNo. Iâve never wanted to kill anyone.â
âNot even the one responsible for ending the world?â
You donât understand the significance of what feels like a pointless conversation, but he looks to be waiting for your answer. âWould revenge change anything? Anyway, whoever is responsible for this is probably dead along with everyone else.â
âAnd if they werenât?â
You are unable to determine what heâs alluding to. âAnd if they werenât, would I want to kill them?â He watches as you consider the question. You move your eyes to the fireplace as you think. Your fingers come up to toy with your necklace as you recall the memories of your family, your friends, your home, and how they were stolen from you forever. A second of reminiscing is all you allow yourself, because you know how much youâre capable of handling before you begin to feel your eyes sting. You already know you miss them, just as you already know this new life is merely a weed compared to the bouquet of possibilities promised by your old one. âCan I give a complicated answer?â
âYou can give an honest answer.â
âI donât think killing them would be my first impulse. Iâd need to know why they did it.â
Langdonâs expression remains unreadable. âYou would bother to put the harbinger of the Apocalypse on trial?â
âNot because I think thereâs any way for them to defend what they did, butâŠâ You hesitate, frustrated to find the right words to express such a complicated sentiment. âI doubt their motivation for ending the world had anything to do with my family or my friends. The people I cared about were victims, but they werenât targets. For me to feel so vengeful as to kill someone, my anger would have to come from a personal place.â You finally return your eyes to his and have the gall to shrug your shoulder. âAnd I just canât be expected to take the Apocalypse personally.â
Langdon laughs. It is neither mocking nor patronizing. The sound echoes around the stone chamber, unexpectedly pleasant and rich. For a sliver of a moment, he is reachable, and you manage to glimpse the boy that exists inside the enigmatic man.
âSuch a strong sense of justice,â he says when his laughter calms. âYou really are a good girl, arenât you? Tell me, whatâs the worst thing youâve ever done?â
You shake your head. âI donât remember.â
âI thought I made it clear thereâd be no lying?â He chastises.
It no longer feels like youâre on equal footing. Heâs staring down the straight line of his nose at you, the set of his mouth taught. Youâre being told off like youâre a child, but this time you suspect that it isnât a simple spanking youâll get. No standing in a corner, no hand-written apology. You bite your lip as cold rinses through you. Youâre afraid of whatâs coming. Youâre afraid heâs going to hurt you.
âGet on your knees.â
Your eyes snap to his. Thereâs ice in your veins. Youâre terrified of where this might be going. You frantically search his face for any hint that what he has planned is meant to violate as much as punish. âWhat? Why?â
âTo confess.â His hand grips your shoulder, just firm enough to pressure you down. Understanding that you have the option to either play along or forfeit the game, you lower yourself to your knees before him.
The stone floor is unforgiving below your naked knees and you grimace as your bones grind. You grip your skirt to quell the trembling in your fingers, and glare at his polished shoes. You know why heâs having you take this position. You know it has everything to do with the cross around your neck. Heâs mocking you, and you can only hope thatâs all he plans to do.
You refuse to let your imagination take you to where this could be headed. You refuse to feed into your fear. âIâve done some things, but nothing worth mentioning. Nothing stands out.â
âYou canât expect me to believe that,â he says from above. âNot from a girl like you.â
âA girl like me?â
He crouches before you. You flinch when his hand settles beneath your chin and forces your eyes to meet his. Your faces are mere inches apart. Heâs so close, you can feel him breathing against your mouth. You expect to be frightened, but it isnât fear that simmers low in your belly as you stare into eyes that share their color with the same sky you thought youâd seen the last of the day the world came to an end.
âYoung, pretty, rich,â his other hand caresses the crucifix at your throat, âdevout. You are the recipe for a rebellious stage.â
His hands are gone from you now, but heâs still too close for you to think clearly. You know heâs not asking to hear about that one time you stole candy from the grocery store when you were five, or the time you egged the house of a girl from school because she made fun of your new haircut. The problem is that you donât have much to confess. You never thought youâd find yourself in a situation where you were repenting for not having more of a wild streak.
âNothing?â He presses, his gaze searching yours.
You know heâs waiting for some kind of response from you, but youâre not paying attention to whatâs being said anymore. He smells like cinder and cinnamon. If you closed your eyes, you could easily imagine being back home with your family, seated around the firepit in the backyard. You loved sitting out with them late into the night, just talking around a warm fire and sipping cinnamon tea. This smell is nostalgic and warm. You want to bury yourself in it.
You snap to the moment you feel the softness of his lapel beneath your fingertips. You freeze when you realize how close youâve leaned in, your mouth but a hairsbreadth away from his. Your eyes sweep to his to find that he doesnât look surprised by your actions. There isnât a trace of the smugness you expect to see from someone who considers you predictable. Heâs simply patient as he continues to walk you through this exchange.
âI-Iâm sorry,â you stammer, pulling away from him.
âAre you?â
Again, he is waiting for your answer. Challenging you in all the ways that make you uncomfortable. You cannot help but to drop your eyes to his mouth. You donât know whatâs wrong with you, having such thoughts at such an inopportune time, but you canât stop them. Heâs so close and his warmth and smell are all you can focus on. You shake your head, feeling your face flame.
His lip curls as if heâs pleased with himself for being right. When he stands to put space between you, you feel that draw for him dissipate like two weak magnets drawn too far apart. âThere is no need to apologize for doing what you want, as long as you are prepared to accept the consequences.â
âI didnât realize what I was doing,â you explain. Itâs important that he knows you would never resort to using your body to get what you want.
âI know,â he assures you smoothly. He comes to stand before you again, and raises his hand back to your face. This time his fingers drag against your cheek and pause at the corner of your lips. His eyes are on them as he speaks. âItâs your nature, given what you are. It would be hypocritical of me to judge you for it.â
Immediately, you take offense. You turn your head away from his hand and glare up at him. âMy nature? You mean, as a woman?â
He smiles at your indignation, and crouches before you again. His voice is velvet. âAs a virgin.â
Your skin blisters with embarrassment, your heart kickstarting to an impossible speed. âHow do you know?â
âLucky guess,â he purrs, and his fingers snag against your crucifix as he moves his hand over your flying heartbeat.
You understand that you should be against him touching you with such familiarity, but you canât bring yourself to push him away. With reluctance, you admit that you like the feel of his hands against your skin. Despite what heâs saying, it isnât because youâre a virgin that youâre responding so strongly to his touch. Itâs him. Everything about him is magnetic. Heâs impossible to resist, as if he were tailor-made to suit your preferences.
âAre you saving yourself?â
He asks this with no hesitancy. He knows youâll answer him. Itâs this certainty of his that makes answering so easy, despite your shyness. âI am, but I donât think it matters anymore.â He looks at you to explain. You can feel the dullness of your smile. âI donât see marriage in my future.â
He offers a small laugh and drops his hand away from your skin. âNone of the other survivorâs have caught your eye?â
The suggestion is absurd enough to make you laugh a little. The people youâve been holed up with these past few months are tolerable, at best. Most of the time, you canât suffer the sound of their breathing, never mind their constant bickering and whining. âTheyâre not my type.â
âBeggars canât be choosers.â
âIâm not begging.â
âNo, not yet.â The words are a promise veiled in ambiguity. He takes your hand and pulls you up from the floor. He doesnât let go as he leads you towards the fireplace where he invites you to take a seat on the brickstone beside him. âWhat is your type?â
You shake your head, at a loss. âIs this part of the interview?â
âIf I am asking, then it is fair to assume that it is.â
âYou ask everyone these questions?â
âI ask each of you exactly what I wish to know.â
Youâre seated so close to him that your hips are touching. You know this nearness is purposeful on his part, but youâre too captivated by him to put space between you. You try to justify it to your conscience with weak excuses about how long itâs been since you last felt the warmth of another person so directly. You know itâs more than that. You canât stop thinking about his overly-familiar hands.
âWhy do you want to know? Are you running a matchmaking service for The Sanctuary?â Itâs a lame attempt at being funny, but you kind of want to make him laugh again. Youâre disappointed that it doesnât work.
âEven if I were, you wouldnât benefit from it.â
The comment is oddly definitive. You sense that thereâs something youâre missing. Something that has everything to do with you and your future. âWhy?â
âThatâs classified. As for why I want to know this...letâs just say, Iâm curious.â
You have to look away from him in order to collect your thoughts. This is only marginally helpful; you can look away, but there is little you can do about the intoxicating way he smells or the press of him against you.
âLet me think,â you request, sifting through your memories for the faces of all the boys youâd once liked and hoping to find some sort of pattern that will satisfy Langdon and put an end to this inane topic. âWell, my ex-boyfriend was tall, brunette, and--â
âWhat did he do to you?â Langdon interrupts.
You avoid his eyes. âWhy do you think he did something to me?â
âDonât hedge,â he reminds you with softened authority. His fingers return to your chin and he forces your eyes back to his. If you were to just barely lean in, your noses would touch. âDid he try to fuck you?â
The crassness of the word makes you cringe. You swallow past the distaste the memory of your ex-boyfriend has left in your mouth. âMaybe.â
Annoyance fractures his carefully managed indifference. You can feel it in the fingers he has digging into your jaw. âEither commit to answering me, or we end this.â
The memories are near enough for them to still draw anger. You donât want to think about your ex-boyfriend and all the ways he tried to manipulate you into going too far. âHe tried to convince me that I could give him oral and stay a virgin.â
His thumb drags below your lower lip and you resist the urge to taste it. Again, you donât know whatâs come over you. Itâs like youâre under a spell. Youâre intoxicated, drunk on the smell and heat emanating from him. With every passing minute, you feel the locked grip you have on your restraint loosening.
âTell me more,â he demands. âWhat else did he do?â
âHe touched me.â Youâre so embarrassed that you feel the heat in your face creep into your eyes, glazing them.
Langdonâs fingers are at your neck, tracing the chain of your necklace. He slowly lifts his eyes to yours with the covetous air of an apex predator. His voice is silken. âDid you like it when he touched you?â
You swallow around the lump that is denial in your throat. The good girl in you is desperate to voice it, but the man in front of you will not permit it. Not again.
âYou can tell me,â he coaxes gently. âNo one can hear you here. Not even God.â
The Lordâs name is profane coming from this silver-tongued angel. It leaves your stomach fluttering. Your voice is barely a whisper. âSometimes I liked it.â
His barely-there smile is back. Heâs pleased with you. âWhen?â
âWhen heâd sneak into my room,â you reply, your breath tight.
Langdonâs smile is borderline tender, as if heâs endeared. âYou like the idea of getting caught doing something you shouldnât. A Catholic schoolgirl who will regularly get on her knees for a man,â he purposefully drops his eyes to your pendant, âjust not the one who loves her.â
Of everything heâs said so far, you take the most offense to this. âHe didnât love me.â
âWould you have let him fuck you if he did?â
Your gaze hardens. The heat in your cheeks burns for a different reason. âI told you Iâm saving myself.â
Langdonâs lionlike gaze is unapologetic. âYou seem like you could be convinced.â
You understand why he thinks this. Not once tonight have you slapped his hands away or given him any reason to think you are against it. If youâre still being honest, you arenât against the touching. In fact, you find yourself hoping for a little more of it. What youâre not wanting is everything itâs leading to. âThereâs nothing you can say or do that he didnât try already.â
âAnd who says I want to try?â Langdon challenges.
âYou canât keep your hands off me.â
âYou donât want me to.â
Your mouth snaps shut, your rebuttal stoppered because, well, he isnât wrong. All you can manage is a weak glare, which only makes him smile. Heâs caught you red-handed.
He takes your silence as permission to shift closer to you. Heâs reasserted his control over the conversation, over you. âIs this how you made your boyfriend suffer? By giving him a sample, but denying him a taste?â His fingertips tickle the back of your arm as he speaks. His touch sends shivers up your spine. âThey have a name for girls like you.â
âPrude?â Youâre tempted to roll your eyes.
âTease,â he whispers into your ear. His mouth lingers against the shell, and very slowly, he drags his velveteen lips against it. His hand is resting against your back. âHow far did you let him go before you made him stop?â
You close your eyes against the lance of heat targeted between your thighs. Itâs been so long since you last felt the feverish craving that was roused by the nearness of a man. His mouth brushing your ear is all your imagination needs before it runs wild with fantasies of him brushing it elsewhere. You imagine that velvety softness dragging warm and slow against your neck, your breasts, your stomach, your thighs, that predatory gaze weighing your reaction as he samples you with his tongue. The burn for him is immediate and overwhelming. You clench a white-knuckled fist against your upper thigh.
âAnswer me,â he demands.
âI always made him stop,â you say in a shuddery breath. âI had a rule: when I said Hail Mary, he stopped. It was like my safe word.â
His lip curls in another almost-smile. Heâs amused at your choice of safe word. âThat doesnât answer my question. How far did you let him go before you were praying to the Blessed Virgin to stop him?â
âI only let him kiss me.â
âLie to me one more time. I dare you.â
The threat drags over you with a violence that agitates the heat pricking below your skin. Youâre not afraid of punishment, youâre afraid of how viscerally youâre responding to him. You canât bring yourself to meet his gaze, but you can still feel it on you. Youâre burning beneath it. âSometimesâŠIâd get carried away.â
âHow far away?â He asks gently. His fingertips trace along the edge of your dress until they reach the hem. He massages the material between his thumb and forefinger as he waits for your answer. The back of his hand is resting against your knee.
âThis is embarrassing,â you say, hoping heâs feeling merciful.
âI donât care.â He smooths his hand over your knee. His fingertips tickle the inside of your leg.
âLike I said, it really was just kissing. Mostly. But sometimes when he was on top of me, Iâd let himâŠâ Mortified, you struggle to get the words out. You make a nonsensical gesture with your hand. The tilt of his head is minute, but itâs enough for you to know heâs not following. You close your eyes and try to imagine none of this is real. Youâre not really saying this. âI think itâs called grinding?â
âYou let him rub his cock against you,â Langdon reiterates with cruel bluntness.
âOur clothes stayed on,â you assure him. You are certain any more embarrassment will cause your face to blister. âAnd it only happened a few times.â
âRegardless,â Langdon imposes. He moves his hand just beneath the hem of your dress until his palm is flush with your thigh. âYou let him. You tested your boundaries. Why?â
âHe said he loved me.â You lift your eyes to his, but you immediately wish you didnât, because you feel and sound foolish. Naive. Delusional. Someone easy to take advantage of. âSorry, that probably sounds stupid.â
âIt doesnât.â The way his eyes hold yours, unflinchingly certain and responsive, allows you to believe that he means it. He removes his hand from your thigh so he can drag the back of his fingers against your cheek. His gaze is softer. âYou trusted him and he betrayed you. You did nothing wrong.â
You already know that, but you still need to hear it. The pain of betrayal has now ebbed to a mere sting, but itâs enough to pull heat and wet into your eyes. âHe left me when he realized I wasnât going to give in. He didnât think I was serious. I guess he also thought I could be convinced.â
You throw Langdonâs words back at him. He receives them with an impressed smile. âBut now heâs dead, and youâve resigned yourself to a lifetime of celibacy. What a tragic ending for you both.â
âWhat choice do I have?â
âMe,â he replies, his hand now combing into your hair, his thumb dragging against the line of your jaw as he leans closer. âIâll fuck you.â
Itâs that word again. Youâre supposed to hate the way it sounds, but you donât. Youâre supposed to feel disgusted with him, but you arenât. Youâre ensnared by his smell and heat and face. The desire to give in mounts. âI canât.â
âSeven billion people were erased from this world in the blink of an eye, and you think your God cares about you getting fucked without a ring on your finger?â
âMy choices have nothing to do with God. Iâm waiting for the person that will commit their life to me. Whoever that person is, I want them to have everything.â
Langdon is still. He doesnât reply immediately. Instead he stares at you. Through you. The sensation feels as if youâre being read, like heâs reaching into your skull and sifting through the truths for the one lie you know he will not find. You havenât lied to him. You are, indeed, a good girl.
He smiles and itâs boyish and brilliant and breathtaking. His other hand comes to grip the other side of your head, and heâs cupping your face in both of his warm hands. âYouâre perfect,â he says approvingly. âYouâre no angel, but youâre close enough. Father is going to love you.â
The fire behind you flares as if itâs alive, agreeing with him. You can almost feel the dancing flames reaching to pull you in. The heat is overwhelming against your back, and your skin struggles to breathe beneath your dress. Itâs all so suffocating, but you donât want to move because his lips are so close to yours. With just the tilt of your chin, youâll feel them. Warm, full, soft, the hungry press of a manâs tongue against your own.
It takes incredible self-control to deny caving into your hunger. âIs this how youâve treated everyone before me? If I kiss you, will I fail?â
His sigh is a soft breath against your face. In that brief moment, he looks tired. Annoyance then darkens his gaze, but somehow you know it isnât annoyance with you. The hand he has against your face is much too gentle to be angry with you. He stands and puts distance between the two of you. Just like that, you can breathe. You shake your head from your stupor and press a palm to your damp forehead.
What was that?
Thereâs a desk in the corner of the room, and you watch as he leans against it. He crosses his arms and the mood shifts. The heat no longer snaps excitedly against your skin. Itâs humid. Dense. The fire at your back feels ready to engulf you. You want to leave, and by the looks of it, heâs about to let you.
âYour station has changed,â Langdon continues casually, picking up a conversation you never started. His leonine-heavy gaze returns to you. âAs of now, you are no longer expected to take orders from anyone at this Outpost. For the next few days, you are to adapt to your new rank.â
âHold on a second,â you appeal, still needing a moment to regain your bearings from that almost-kiss. âIâm getting promoted? Iâm not a Gray anymore?â Your legs feel weak beneath you when you stand. Your heart is exhausted. Any more excitement and it might actually give out.
âYou are neither a Gray, a Purple, or any other absurd class improvised by Wilhemina Venable to feed her tyrannical god complex.â
Your head spins as you try to decipher what heâs suggesting, but any effort is constantly interrupted with the rejoiceful slip of I passed looping through your mind. You arenât a Gray anymore. Youâre just you. Free. Safe. âIâm going to The Sanctuary?â
âYouâll go where I think youâll be safest.â
That brings you to a halt. You pause walking, your eyes locked with his. âWhat do you mean? Why would you care about my safety? You donât even know me.â
âTrue,â he agrees, taking the first step forward to close the distance between you again. Youâre beginning to notice a pattern where he seems unable to tolerate speaking outside the area of your personal space. âBut I donât need to know your favorite color, the name of your first pet, or how old you were when you started your period. That information is neither interesting to me nor useful.â
Your eyes narrow, tight with mistrust. âYou need me to be useful?â
âYou will be. Or at least part of you.â He drags his gaze below your hips to make a point.
You bristle. All desire you feel for him is wrung from you with that one glance. âI will not serve as your sex slave.â
His blue stare is disparaging. He looks bored again, as if youâre discussing business and heâs simply filling you in on last meetingâs notes. âIf I wanted a sex slave, do you really think Iâd choose the last virgin on Earth for the job?â
The last virgin on Earth. You wonder if thatâs true. You wonder how he could possibly even know that, and yet youâre positive that he does. Somehow, some way, this man has knowledge that should be impossible. âI think youâd choose someone that poses a challenge, and I think the last virgin on Earth would be exactly that for you.â
His smile is impressed again, but his gaze is harder. Arrogant. He steps forward to tower over you. His blonde hair slips from behind his shoulders to frame the magnificence of his face in a golden halo. âDoes figuring me out make you feel smart?â
You arenât allowed to lie. You havenât forgotten. âI donât feel smart, I feel afraid. I donât understand what you want from me.â
âWhat I want is your unwavering conviction.â His hands lift to grip your hips and he pulls you closer. The buckle of his belt presses uncomfortably against you, his mouth once more at your ear. âI need you to deny me and mean it. I need your innocence to remain more important to you than this.â
He takes your hand and presses your open fingers against his crotch. He grinds himself into your palm so you can feel the fullness of him in your hand. Your fingers twitch with the desire to close around that hardness and heat. Just as he asks, just as you want, you forcibly snatch your hand away and whip it across his face.
The spark of pain smarting against your palm precedes the awareness of what youâve done. Langdonâs golden hair curtains his face. You canât read his expression. You canât see how angry he is. You donât care. You pull yourself free of him and move backward towards the doors, watching as he straightens to watch you go. His gaze drags against your skin. He smirks as if he approves, as if heâs satisfied.
âWhy?â Is all you are able to ask. Nothing makes sense. You havenât felt this confused since the bombs fell and blew your world to smithereens, and yet somehow you were one of the few to live on.
âBecause you have been deemed worthy of a very important role.â
âDeemed by who?â You demand. Your hands are shaking and you curl them into your dress. âWhat role?â
âAs the bride of the New World.â
You shake your head. Itâs all you can do now that your voice has fled you. Heâs gauging your reaction with an indifference that communicates his lack of compassion for the turmoil heâs thrown you into.
âNo,â you somehow manage to choke out. You donât know what it is youâre rejecting, you donât understand what heâs talking about, but whatever it is, you donât want it. âI donât accept.â
âWhich is exactly why youâve been chosen,â he interrupts spiritlessly. This conversation is a chore for him. âYour resistance is what I need.â
âBut why?â
âBecause I cannot corrupt what is already corrupted. There is no victory to be gained in debasing someone that wishes to be. You are the only one left that can be groomed for the purpose for which youâve been chosen. You will resist me up until the point where you canât, and then you will surrender everything to me. It will be through your sacrifice that His will be done.â
You want to argue. You want to press him to clarify what he means by grooming and His will. You want to pull open the doors and run from him and never look back---Sanctuary be damned. You do none of these things. Thereâs no point. Not when you know heâs right. His words feel like prophecy, and he speaks them like heâs divined them himself.
âIâd rather die,â you bite out in a last ditch effort to retain control over your will.
âSpare me the dramatics,â he orders, swinging his arms behind his back and tilting his head like a schoolteacher censuring a bad child. âThe others have given me enough of them. Iâve already allowed more from you than anyone else, but my tolerance has worn thin. Lie to me again, and there will be consequences.â
That has you riled up. Your fear is momentarily forgotten and you straighten yourself in preparation to argue. âI donât answer to you.â
âIs that what you think?â Thereâs danger simmering below the surface of his collected gaze. A confidence thatâs vested in the accoutrements of power. Heâs being patient with you, because he knows something you donât and heâs waiting to see when the ball will drop.
Youâve never felt this around a person before. His presence surpasses what would normally be excused as sheer charisma. He fills the room in a way that stirs, as if his life force is enough to gather even the attention of the air. You either allow yourself to be taken in, or you choke on him.
âWho are you?â
âMy name is Michael Langdon,â he reminds you. As if you ever forgot. As if you havenât been hearing it whispered amongst the others for the last day. âAnd last I checked, Iâm not the one being interviewed.â
Heâs standing before you again. Youâve backed as far away as youâre physically able, your back now flush with the door. You glare up into his beautiful face like a person determined to admire the sun. âThis doesnât feel like an interview.â
âYouâre right,â he cedes softly. âItâd be more appropriate to call this an introduction.â
âAm I supposed to say itâs nice to meet you?â
âOnly if you feel that way.â
âI donât.â
He considers you for a quiet moment. Youâve been staring at his mouth enough tonight that you can now tell when heâs displeased. The fullness of his lips are drawn taught. Not as soft.
You donât care if youâve offended him. He deserves to be. His forwardness and bizarre statements have left you frightened, indignant. Most of all, youâre confused. You have a hundred questions whizzing around your head, and you know you wonât get any answers unless you quit fighting and engage with him the way he wants. ââBride of the New Worldâ, what does that mean?â
âWhat do you think it means?â
âAre you going to keep answering my questions with more questions?â
He smirks, and itâs just shy of a real smile. Your heart murmurs in response, and you hate yourself for it. You hate even more how immediately you flush when you feel his right hand wrap around your left.
âSince youâre so smart, Iâll let you figure it out. Youâre the bride,â he begins, and he drags his thumb across your ring finger. âAnd Iâm the New World.â
Surprise comes at you like a baseball bat bludgeoning you in the head. The sensation starts off as a numb tingling in the back of your skull. It collects there until it overflows, spilling down your neck, your spine, through your shoulders, until your entire body is numb with it. You canât feel the warmth of his hand around yours. You canât feel your expression. You donât know what you want to ask, because youâre not sure youâve accepted what youâve heard. From the moment you stepped into this room, youâve felt half-submerged in a fever dream turned nightmare. You decide the best way to wake is to let it run its course.
âThe Cooperative decided this?â You ask in a dazed whisper.
The hint of playfulness thatâd warmed his gaze is extinguished. Youâve brought up something he doesnât like talking about. He releases your hand. âNo. If The Cooperative had decided this, then itâd be negotiable.â
The resentment that sharpens the bite of his voice almost manages to pull you back to reality. Almost. âYou have no say in this either.â Itâs a statement, because you know itâs true. The tightness of his mouth confirms it.
And maybe he doesnât like being read, because he turns away from you and moves to stand before the fireplace.
âIf not The Cooperative, then who is forcing meâusâto do this?â
âMy Father.â
You laugh. You canât help it. It bubbles up your throat and slips through your disbelieving smile. This man, the one who strolled in here and took charge as if the world was made for the palm of his hand, was taking orders from his daddy. âWell, maybe you can tell your father that Iâm not interested.â
âCome here and tell him yourself.â
You grow quiet and wait for the punchline. It takes several long seconds to pass before you accept that heâs serious. With slow footsteps, you approach his side before the fireplace. He doesnât even so much as glance at you. His stare is held by the flame. Curious, you also turn your gaze to the fire.
The sensation that shrouds you is overpowering. The darkness thatâs introduced doesnât creep, it charges. Youâre plunged into a fear that feels like a bottomless chasm. Youâre being eaten, your stomach in your throat. The flames stretch and dance like irritable feelers reaching to pull you in and burn you. Youâre a trapped deer staring down the barrel of a gun.
âTell him,â Langdon invites with collected calm. âDeny him.â
Your words are caught behind what feels like a tennis ball in your throat. Your eyes are locked on the fire. You canât see anything, but you can feel it. Itâs listening, and this terrifies you.
âSay it,â Langdon commands, impatience making his voice harsh.
âI wonât marry you. I refuse.â The fire crackles and you flinch. âEven if it means not going to The Sanctuary.â
âYouâll die,â he reminds you.
âMaybe.â You donât want to agree. You donât want to accept the likelihood. âBut if it means standing by my ideals, then so be it. I accept the consequences.â
At your words, the fire swells to an inferno. You swear the flames reach the ceiling. You throw up your arms, cowering from the enraged heat that threatens to catch you. You stumble backward against Michael, whoâs moved to stand behind you. He catches you by the shoulders and takes your right hand in his.
âDonât be afraid,â he urges, pulling your hand up to the flame.
âPlease, stop!â Itâs going to burn you. You jerk your arm in an effort to get free, but his grip on you is too tight. He forces you closer to the hearth. His arm is braced around your waist. He leans forward, pressuring you closer to the dancing flames. You clench your eyes closed as he pulls your hand directly into the fire. A feathery warmth envelops your hand. Surprised, you open your eyes just to confirm that your hand is indeed encased in flame.
âHow?â You wonder breathlessly.
Langdonâs grip relaxes around your hand, and his ringed fingers tenderly brush over yours. His chin is against your shoulder, his long hair brushing your neck. âHe approves of you.â
You weakly shake your head. Heâs not making sense, but you canât concentrate enough to care. Youâre enchanted by the sensation tickling your skin, astonished how it can even be happening. You decide youâre dreaming. You must be. âIs this real?â
âDoesnât it feel real?â He questions softly. The arm he has curled around your waist tightens and he pulls you further against him until your backside is flush with his groin, your legs pressed against his thighs. He shifts his hips so you can feel his hardness nestled between your legs. His warm lips caress the side of your neck.
âMr. Langdon--â
âMichael,â he corrects.
âMichaelâŠâ His mouth brushes your neck and your objection falters. It feels wonderful. Your eyes slip closed so you can concentrate on the velvety drag of his mouth on your skin. You tuck your teeth into your lip to withhold another shivering sigh. Youâre under that strange spell again where your senses are overwhelmed with him, and you just canât get enough. Like an addict who promises to quit but canât commit, you tell yourself just a little more. Then youâll stop. Just a few more moments, and youâll push him away.
His hand drops to your hip and slips around to the front of your thigh where he grabs, hoisting you further against him until youâre practically sitting in his lap. Your breath hitches. Heat simmers low in your belly. His chest is weighing against you, and you curl your back against him. The action tilts your hips forwards and you can now feel the full press of his manhood between your thighs. Your instinct is to rub yourself against it, but you bite your lip and resist. You know better. âWait.â
âI want you, Caroline.â
Itâs the first time youâve heard him say your name. He makes it sound beautiful, like poetry, and youâre troubled by how badly you wish to hear it again. âI donât want this.â
âWhat did I tell you about lying to me?â He asks with silken menace, his hand dragging low across your abdomen, his teeth nipping your skin in teasing punishment.
Blistering pain explodes around the hand you still have partly in the fire. You scream and pull it out, but the excruciating pain is still there. Michael releases you and you stagger away from him, away from the fireplace, clutching your seared hand.
âWhat did you do?â
His cerulean gaze is pitiless as he stalks after you. âI warned you. I told you thereâd be consequences, and you accepted them. Or was that another lie?â
You grit your teeth. Again, heâs right. You did accept the consequences. You forsook his proffered Sanctuary in order to protect your ideals. You just never imagined that the consequences he threatened would be this inconceivable. The fire had lashed out at you on purpose. You donât know how itâs possible, but you know itâs the truth. What just happened hadnât been an accident. His eyes confirm it.
Youâre afraid again. You just want to get away, but this time youâre not sure what youâre running from. A few minutes ago, you wouldâve claimed you were running from a man. Now, youâre not so sure. Your hand stings and you glance behind him at the fire as an irrational level of terror numbs you from the waist down. When your back hits the door, you scramble for the handle with weak hands. This time, you will be leaving. Your fingers are wedged between the doors, ready to pull them open, when he speaks.
âThere is nowhere you can run. He will not yield. Not when heâs decided he wants you,â he says, returning his hands to behind his back in a way that leaves his body language non-threatening. Youâre not fooled.
âYouâre insane,â you accuse. Your voice quakes and you donât care. You shake your head as if you can cast off the foreboding that clings to you like a cage. âLeave me alone.â
âNo, I donât think I will.â Although heâs steps behind you, somehow his voice is in your ear again, a sultry whisper carrying a dangerous promise. âYour fate has been decided and there is no getting away from it. You donât have that freedom. You wondered why you survived, and now you have your answer. Youâve been gifted with the one thing that so many waste their lives trying to find.â
His words manage to carry through the buzz of panic in your head to recapture your attention. You meet his eyes so he knows that youâre listening. âWhat?â
âPurpose.â The word is a sugary drip of honey that lands stale. âYou should be happy.â
Despite your distress, you still manage to feel provoked. Happy. That sentiment died along with the rest of the world. You had no one left that cared about you for any reason other than how useful you could be, and this man was clearly no different. Though his motivations were still shrouded in mystery, he made it quite clear that he only viewed you as a tool to be exploited for a grander purpose. A purpose for which he expected you to feel happy about. A purpose which robbed you of choice, of your freedom. You would rather have died with your family.
âIs that what you are? Happy?â
Your words bring him up short, and for the first time all evening his sureness wavers. You can see it in the subtle shift of his expression where his eyes soften beneath the reminder of some unseen injury. Your words have brushed over an unhealed wound and the throb of memory has resurfaced something heâs tried to bury.
For the first time since his arrival at the Outpost, youâve come face-to-face with the real Michael Langdon, and you feel something inside you resonate with the reawakening of his loss. His quiet speaks volumes, but you are stubborn to ignore the sympathy that unfurls like a sleeping flower in your chest. You havenât forgotten your fear, and the bloom of feeling you might have for him wilts beneath the overcast of his malicious dominion.
His will is poison, and youâre scared to breathe.
âI want nothing to do with you.â These are the last words you speak before you leave. As you rush back to your room, you clasp a hand around your crucifix and pray that youâre at least better at lying to yourself than you are to him.
Authorâs Note:Â Hello! I hope you enjoyed reading this chapter. Like many, I fell absolutely head-over-heels in LOVE with Cody Fern this past season of AHS, and I couldn't wait to get my fingers on him (on my keyboard, anyway...). Please let me know what you think of this chapter. This is my first Character/Reader fic, so it's pretty new territory for me. I hope you guys don't mind that I gave 'you' a name (I find myself really thrown off when reading 'Y/N').
Please comment/like/reblog if you liked the chapter! I really appreciate any support.
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         just have that âlibrarian vibeâ because
         i -ââ    â
         hope stops herself and curses, mentally telling herself that in a city where most people would rather not ever look into the eyes of a stranger let alone start up a random conversation, there would probably be hostility towards such a casual and harmless remark. she backtracks.
         â   no, this isnât something to say to
         someone you donât know in a coffee
         shop, is it ? sorry, if you want your own
         space -ââ i know itâs busy and we kind
         of ended up at the same table but i
         can move, ah, go walk twenty blocks
         away or -ââ gah.    â
         â   youâre really pretty.        uh,
         i mean like -ââ your hair. itâs really
         nice and the way itâs catching in
         the sunlight right now and how the
         window is framing you, uh -âââ    â
         hope needs to learn a better filter. people in the city would rather you look down and not talk than have some midwestern niceties. she tries to keep retracing her steps.
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         myself mixed up and, can you just tell
         me where west third is ?    â
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