Jan 23, 2018
t-minus 7hrs till my train leaves for DC... and as per usual iβm still awake and overthinking everything and rearranging my luggage and quadruple checking my lists and anxious af
#someone tranquillise me and meet me there#puhLEEASE#this is only going to exacerbate my anxiety over the next few days too#damn#iβm always like this before a trip#recently that is#....#like a child#feeling completely helpless inadequate and incapable of fending for myself#Which my rational mind knows is ridiculous#Seeing as I have lived in so many different countries and cities and travelled to so many different placesοΏΌ#I know it doesnβt make any sense#i just need to pull my rational mind up out of the cobwebbed void tell it to behave itself and take precedence over this fear#I will be okay...#worst case scenarios not accounted for#but i am still SO EXCITED !!!!#I am just juggling so many emotions right now Iβm not sure what to do with them all#///shut up marty#personal#nightblogging#or is it early morning ??#uughg#anyway goodnight one goodnight all#<<33#wish me luck#stchamlet
