#i miss andrew...

I’m used to this feeling but it still hurts just as bad. I hope for the day I wake up and feel normal again. I wish for one whole day I didn’t feel depressed or overthink myself into feeling like shit.. I wish for one whole week I didn’t cry once. but it’s been three years of this same pain and it only grows, just in different ways. Now I’ve got familiar pain mixed with new pain but it's also familiar?? and the lump in my throat only gets worse. I just.. don't even know where I'm at.