Jul 12
Sorry if I’m not drawing anything as of now, I’ve been nervous and stressing on a bunch of stupid shit lately and it’ll probably be like that until Tuesday (hopefully)
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Sorry if I’m not drawing anything as of now, I’ve been nervous and stressing on a bunch of stupid shit lately and it’ll probably be like that until Tuesday (hopefully)
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I have 3 group works and I'm literally burned out.. Here's my babie reassuring me <3
astarion: *wears the hat*
me: 😧😠😡🤬😭😍🥰
*NOT MY PICTURE. FIND ON Steam! And if that link doesn’t work: Wallpaper Engine > Workshop > CaitieKookie's Workshop > “Astarion Cowboy Hat”*
hey quick question where is the shutoff switch for the part of my brain that experiences Emotions
the way zosan literally is my roman empire like tell me how every night before i go to bed i think about them and then when i wake up in the morning they’re all i think about again 😩
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well. that. that happened.
um. the show is over now.
it took me until 2am to finish it, again, and who is surprised? that’s right, no one.
anyway. uh.
soundwin kissed first and im dying.
and im not okay because attachment issues + graduations in any media = full blown mental breakdown
but like its fine
um. i have commentary on the episode but at the moment i need to process the fact that a) all of that actually happened, b) soundwin actually kissed, and c) the show is now over entirely and theres no more friday nights/saturday mornings of happy feelings from happy high schoolers in their happy band
and by ‘process’ i mean i need to go to sleep.
also i wouldve been content with the little cheek kisses we got BUT THEN THEY FULLY KISSED AND THEY KISSED BEFORE TINNGUN
WHICH MEANS, AS PER USUAL, SOUNDWIN DID IT FIRST
i am so mentally unwell it isnt even funny anymore
Fuck anxiety. Usually I can deal with my anxiety but for me the worst type of anxiety is definitely the one that has no reason to exist. I should leave to therapy soon but I’m so exhausted and tired (both mentally and physically) that I’m feeling sick to my stomach even. I haven’t left the house in 7 days at all which is nothing new, but it’s just that I know and don’t know what is behind all this.
I did sleep too little and yesterday I fell asleep around this time because I just couldn’t sleep any earlier so now I’m not only having anxiety but my brain also thinks it’s melatonin time and for whatever reason, getting this much natural melatonin during daytime always worsens my anxiety symptoms too.
Like I’m on the edge of a mental breakdown all the time now. And I don’t know why. Or partially I do but I just wish the things would go away on their own so I didn’t need to think about them ever again but I don’t think they will...
Today I need to: go to therapy, and go to a grocery store. And then again in the evening. Right now I just wish I could go to sleep and just sleep on all my problems and mental health issues. But I can’t do that, because therapy starts in 20 minutes. In a way, going outside for the first time in 7 days could also reduce the anxiety but who knows, it might also increase it. I usually don’t get mental breakdowns in public which is why it scares me what happens when I get back home finally. Maybe I’ll just go take a nap then. I don’t know.
Right now I really need to start getting ready for leaving to therapy tho.