sometimes i can’t tell if i like someone or i like the idea of them. to create an ideal in my head as to how things are supposed to be. is this what i want? or is this what i’m told i’m supposed to want? are these my feelings, or something forced down my throat? do i like the way they look at me, or do i only like the fact that someone is looking at me. do i want to be seen by them, or just seen in general?














