#hyperandrogenic

Yeah, I am. I'm vaguely hyperandrogenic, which isn't caused by any external factors like exercising or HRT — I'm just naturally like this. This affects my fertility and my hormonal cycle, which means that's two out of three intersex trait clusters checked off: organ function & sex hormones.

I've already answered how being intersex affected my gender, but TL:DR I am a genderless dudegirl who grew up being ping-ponged between both binaries and never quite acknowledged as "properly" being either. This makes me Ambonec; I am neither binary gender because I am both binary genders. Pretty snazzy stuff!

I am a hormonally intersex person with a lot of psychosomatic symptoms & I am also fat for now due to my medication, but used to be mostly underweight. That being said, my body has played a direct role in my interactions with the world & society, which has in turn somewhat shaped my sense of self & identity. Some of it was painful, but all of it made me learn valuable lessons about humanity and identities.

Personally, the main reason I am a DUDE-girl is the fact that I am hyperandrogenic; hairy, tall, deeper voice & with a boost to my capacity of developing muscle mass. This makes me feel related to being a dude (barely gendered, unwhole) than directly being a man or boy, since it feels more alike to that and less directly that. I feel like I am a girl who's a dude; I am a princess near men, and a knight near women. I can be whichever one whenever, and with nonbinary people this gets a boost.

My girlhood and my dudeness are inherently tied, and unseparable. Without my dudeness, I'd be a incomplete girl; my duality is what makes me whole. I've learned to love this part of myself, regardless of what I do to my body (shaving, getting muscles, going on E/androblockers, etc.). It's a key part of my identity that I won't let go of. I am inherently androgynous in the way people don't like, and I've come to take pleasure in unnerving people (to some extent).

Otherwise, my physical disabilities just make me a very grouchy and tired person. I am usually exhausted or in physical pain, and that's about it. My hip-leg connections are fighting for their lives, my fine motor skills are cooked, and I still feel like a clumsy little thing learning to survive despite being around for so long. :)