#hypelevi

I’ve certainly been through a lot this year, I’m more open with who I really am, and I met a lot of really cool people, that I’ll truly never forget.

I cried this year, which I hadn’t done four years before, I went to my hometown, I matured, I met my parents, and met my beautiful girlfriend, Raven hypelevi , who I love very much.

And this means yet another year on Tumblr.

I’ve been on Tumblr for years, and so many times, I’ve felt as if I was going to die, give up completely, but there was always someone there to cheer me on. There was always someone to tell me it was alright, that it would get better, and I believed it.

I was saved from giving into myself.

When I was younger, I had always thought of myself as an empty vessel with no feelings, just a non-living being that just…. existed.

But, I met people on Tumblr who opened up to me. I met people who could actually put up with my shit, and I felt happiness.

When I felt that way, I was on here 24/7, and all that positive energy coming from Tumblr shone into everyday life.

I opened up to people at my school, and people accepted me. I made friends. I never knew that social media could change my life like that. I realized that I wasn’t an empty vessle.

A while later, I saw someone by the url “erensies” and saw that they had followed me. I checked out that person’s blog, found that they were pretty cool, and sent them an ask.

They replied, and we became friends. We talked, and talked, and talked, and eventually we became best friends, even telling eachother our secrets.

Later, I started to get really excited when I got messages from the person; my heart seemed to skip a beat. I realized that I might have had a crush on them.

Some of my followers found out, and were supportive to me fully, even telling me to confess.

Being the embarrassed little shit I am, I decided that we should stay friends, and I talked to my friend Raven casually for months, making sure she didn’t realize my feelings toward her.

But eventually my followers wanted to take a stand on it.

They were spamming me and Raven’s ask box with “Rayuk is Canon” and “Why don’t you two kiss already”. I was really embarrassed, and responded to the asks only to delete them later on.

My followers continued to ship me and my friend, creating ship names and even submitting art to me (which I couldn’t post out of extreme embarrassment). My feelings were only getting stronger and stronger, Raven posting selfies while I stalked over them like the pervert I was.

Then, I confessed.

At first I made little hints at it, but my feelings were becoming too strong, so I told Raven that I liked her, and it was really awkward for a couple of days....

But, to my utmost surprise, she admitted she felt the same way, and we dated.

At first it was awkward, and then we started chattignand eventually started talking about boyfriend/girlfriend things and talked about meeting in real life and things.

So yeah, we had sexual relations, and it's been... A year and some months that we've been dating now, I think.

So ye that's my story.

I would like to thank all the people who have supported me this year, and my followers who have been with me since the beginning.

2014 was kind of shitty for me, but it had some of the brightests moments that I'll never forget.

So let's kick 2014 in the ass, and make 2015 our time to shine!!