#hyenasaurus

@lost-kinn and @hyenasaurus will hold me personally responsible

I will get pelted with tomatoes by . . . many people

@littleplushlizard will physically manifest in my house

@soar319 with break into my house and steal all my left socks (hyenasaurus will help by stealing all my right gloves)

@namichma will plant legos around my house and pebbles in my shoes

@signomad is gonna get me (the specifics of that I have no idea, which makes me concerned)

@shattered-hallownest will remove four (4) of my keyboard keys

@ginger-goats-galore is gonna burn my house down with combustible vessels (how could you)

It is implied that @tfwhynoy will most likely physically harm me in some way shape or form

@albeitawkwardalliterations will eat my fingers

@lunawolf237yeahstuff (whom tumblr refuses to let me mention) will steal my kneecaps and sell them on ebay

Summer Vacation begins, so here’s some art to kick it off!

Featuring @hivemindomega/@hyenasaurus, @chelliosmacchiatos (Insta)

@trebleclefy, @teallaquin, @dark-xenon

I'm still sick with worry. I wish that I was online earlier, to at least be there for her... I don't know if I should feel guilty for not being around at that time. Maybe just being present would have helped her think a little more clearly. Then again I never attempted suicide so I wouldn't know...

I don't want her to die. She's one of the most amazing people I have ever met in my life. And it seems, even now, she has been touching people and making them happy. All of this shit, this abuse... she doesn't deserve any of it. I remember when we were younger she would tell me about how bad her mother was, but that she was still a "good person." I guess I had the right idea when I couldn't believe that. It gave me the wrong vibes the entire time.

She never told me about any physical fights that she had with either of her parents. The only thing I knew was that in some ways, they made her feel  worthless. And that angers me. They have a talented artist for a daughter and they treat her like shit. I cannot fucking believe that. I cannot fucking believe that people can be so shitty to their own flesh and blood, to the point where their child believes that they can't do anything right. I hate that. I really do.

She can do plenty right. She can make others feel wanted. She can inspire people. She can be there for anyone whenever they feel down. She can art amazingly (poor grammar, but still). She can write fluent English when it's not even her first language and when I first met her I found that fucking amazing, especially since she even knew words that I didn't even know in the English language. That is how good she is.

Never did I ever think ill of her, no matter what ever happened. She would always be on my mind whenever there was a misunderstanding, because she means so much to me. I always think of her as my older sister. And older sisters or brothers... they are always looked up to. I look up to her. I love her. Love. her.

If what she did really kills her... I don't know what I'll do. 

While she was away for those two years, I constantly worried about her. I wondered if I would ever see her again. I would always think about the moments we shared together, all the fun we had, the memories made through our interactions, as well as Darius and Adeline's interactions. It's what made us even closer. To lose a bond like that... something that I never thought I would ever have during my years on Deviantart or whatever... it would physically hurt me. My heart would shrivel like a raisin. The worst part is, no matter how much I look towards the past on things for the sake of nostalgia... it would never bring her back if she pulled off a successful suicide.

I'm praying for you every minute of every hour since I learned of what had happened to you. I want you to live. You are undeserving of losing your life especially when you do have a future. I don't want you to lose hope because of what those monsters do to you. You have a chance, nothing is ever impossible. Just because everything looks bleak doesn't mean that there won't be a light to guide you. You're capable of so many things, and I mean that.

If you do make it through, I hope that you read this. You are not worthless. You are beautiful. You are incredible, outstanding. You are talented, benevolent, and an amazing friend. Your heart is made of gold.

And that is why we love you.

We all love you.

And when you're feeling like this, like life for you has no meaning... We want to be there to console you. Open yourself to us. Let us shower you with the love you deserve, since that person that has no right to be called a mother doesn't spare any for you. If she doesn't care, she's not your family.

We are your family.

And as family, we will stick together. Let us take you under our wing and share happy days together. Let our love save you from the darkness.

You are never alone.

We will be there for you.

Hyena: lmfao we could even make the daribus think like a secret keyword for dar and ad

Erii: ;w;

Hyena: like dar has degraded into supersrs classic dusknoir and is being all business like

then ad whispers 'daribus'

Erii: PgFhjgf

Hyena: and he realizes hes being a dicku and calms down and starts acting like a happy tard again for a short while

Hyena: ;u;

Erii: AwwWwWwwWwww fuk feels

Erii: we need to have them reunite soon

Hyena: yesssssss

Erii: then sapfest

Hyena: hAVE THE FEELS

Erii: delicious delicious feels

Me: Pumpkaboo's Dex entry: "It is said to carry wandering spirits to the place where they belong so they can move on."

Hyena: so it’s like kalos's dusknoir

Me: I thought "They'd make good Dusknoir assistants" or something like that

Me: yes

Hyena: yess

Hyena: dusknoir carries the souls and pumpkaboo guides the dusknoir and lights their way

Me: hee

Hyena: or otherwise pumpkaboo is a motorbike while dusknoir is a minibus

Me: HAHAH

Hyena: *SHOT*

Hyena: yes from now on I will call all dusknoirs minibuses

Me: phfdgsfjsdf

Hyena: Erica you have too many minibuses

Erii then whispers "daribus"

Me: HAhhagfh yes I do

Hyena: oh my godchcjlajlb

Me: it was canon before we even had this conversation

Hyena: ddjjhiasbywdkkg

Hyena: beep beep all aboard the magical ghost bus

Hyena: this is your stop mlady have a good day in the afterlife

Me: gog

Me: I can only imagine Darius was silly like that at the start of his job until he slowly regressed into being super srs

Hyena: this conversation needs to be in tumblr