#hydroc

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[서연고 싸이퍼] feelDa, Churry, RoCCe, HydroC - CINDY (over the SKY)

Nostalgia. I'm driven by it. I thrive on it. It's one of the greatest parts of being human. Life is great now, but somehow my memory always portrays my past in a greater light. Even the small things, like getting up before the sun rises and drinking coffee on my way to school in the middle of February, or walking by the river during lunch just to watch the train pass by, were stand out moments in my life. The times spent in my car between classes, listening to Nils Frahm or Arcade Fire as I contemplated my future, will always be life long memories of mine. These moments, which seem incredibly dull to others, were some of the most influential pieces of history in my life. It was in these times that I decided my career path, my purpose in life, and what/who really mattered to me. I think back to these times and I remember being scared. I remember having an unhealthy amount of anxiety. I remember feeling important, and I remember feeling completely useless. I remember coming to conclusions that made me feel so content with life, but then questioning them the very next day. I remember growing. These small experiences of my past... I get this weird satisfaction when I remember them. I know a lot of it has to do with my fear of getting older. I'd give anything to go back in time to when I was six and plant that tree with my dad again. I'd give anything to go back to our car rides to the beach when I was younger. I'd give anything to go back to the times a friend and I went to concerts together. I know I can't though. I know memories will have to suffice, and that's where nostalgia comes in. I have to remind myself not to get too caught up in it. I have to remind myself that I'm creating nostalgia right now. One day I'll look back to this very moment and remember how great things are. -J

When I write and compose music, one of my biggest insecurities is if I have spent enough time fully fleshing out all of my creativity. I find myself always questioning whether or not a project is done, or if I've tweaked this enough, or have I spent enough time on that. It really bothers me. The longer I've been at producing, the more I've come to realize that I will never know. I will never know if a song could have been better or if an idea could have been expanded. When a piece of music is released, it's abandoned. This concept of abandoning music has led me to release less and less music this year. Not because my time spent in the studio is nonexistent (although less time has been spent there), but rather, I'm afraid of having the world hear another lackluster piece of music from me. I always feel like I have so much potential. If I could just figure out how to focus and physically work at the craft, maybe I could create something that showcases that potential. Not for other people, but for myself. I'm working at it, it's not easy, it's not supposed to be. -J