you know how gansey functionally went deranged after his first death? what if it's the same after his second one? what if henry, with at least some psychic background, knew to expect it, knew to nudge gansey away from the rest of them because gansey would never want to be seen like that by adam, by ronan, by noah... what if the 'road trip' is a thinly veiled excuse for gansey to go full HarrowTM, curled up on the floors and barely stopped from clawing his own eyes out.
he has good days sometimes -- they look at the woods, at silly attractions, let gansey feel better until the weight of rebirth hits him again. and then its damage control, holding him, forcing him to eat, accepting him as he effectively goes through death-withdrawals. it's at one of henry's properties, wild swath of grass for the good days, isolated enough to muffle screams. people try to reach them during td3, definitely, desperate employees of seondeok insisting that it is a matter of the entire world, of all the Roads, we need you in Boston--and it's henry saying he doesn't give a damn about the world right now, he will not let his friend suffer. it's blue shrugging off the pleading look she's given, following henry out of the foyer, because if the choice is gansey or the world, it's really no choice at all.
it's the both of them gently nudging gansey into the most cramped room in the house when everything gets too loud for him, its them letting gansey crush their hands in a painful grip as his body trudges through the ischemia, adjusts, adjusts. it's taking turns so gansey doesn't get overwhelmed. it's putting aside everything for love, for friendship.
he may have come back wrong, because there is no resurrection without consequence, but he has support, and that love is there to nurture without condition
